Made it!

Made it on time for the teleconference this morning. I actually got to the office at 7:50am. Felt GREAT! :) I enjoyed the quietness of the office at 8am in the morning. There are not as many people there and I can really have some time to myself (especailly as I am sitting in an open plan arrangement!)

I was given a new toy today as well - a new Dell laptop. I am happy that I am now assigned a new laptop and a proper VPN setup which means that I can work for home more often, but then I am feeling a bit sad on the other hand as I have lost access to quite a few things on my laptop, such as MSN Messenger, my Chinese input etc etc. Until I am able to download MSN Messenger again, I won't be able to get online from work :(

Hope that I will have my laptop restored to the same state as my old one soon!

0800 Teleconference

I have to attend a teleconference at work at 8am in the mornng, so decided to go to bed as early as possible. Waking up in time to make sure that I arrive at work b4 8am is a constant challenge for me every time I have to attend teleconference with the US.
Have to skip my diary entry today. Will write more tomorrow.

QT @ Cronulla

Spent half a day at Cronulla today with Nus and 叔叔．The 3 of us got there at around 1:30pm and headed to a cafe for lunch. After lunch we walked back to the beachside and we each found a place to have quiet time individually.

It is such a blessing and luxury to be able to spend 2 hours purely with the Lord, praising Him, meditating on His words and just spend time with Him alone!

Wish I can find more time to be with the Lord.

溫暖

外面的天氣雖然很冷,但內心卻感覺很溫暖.

溫暖，是因為見到家姐、Bill哥、媽咪、大舅父、大舅母他們都有出席今天為我短宣禱告的聚會；

溫暖，是因為有著愛我的弟兄姊妹為我的短宣旅程同心祈禱；

溫暖，是因為祢知道我心中的問題與需要而給我直接的訊息；

溫暖，是因為感受到神家中弟兄姊妹的關懷與愛；

溫暖，是因為知道，又感受到我是深深被祢所愛．

唯獨祢是在我生命中不能取替．

但願我一生都行在祢的旨意之中．

我也祈禱我身邊所愛，所關心的，也同樣感受到祢的大愛及在祢裡面那豐盛的生命．

願祢保守，賜福給他們．

降服

降服,
需要勇氣,
需要代價,
需要聽從,
需要禱告,
需要有盼望,
但最需要的可能是要肯走出自己的comfort zone.

父神,求祢教曉我們應怎樣降服於祢腳前,由祢引領,被祢所用.

Linda's suprise party

Went to Linda's suprise birthday party tonight. I can see that Andy has put in a lot of effort in making sure that Linda gets a good suprise and that everyone will have a good time. Dinner at Takeru was good. The food there was quite yummy and wasn't expensive as well. Haven't had dinner with such a big group of people except for fellowship dinner. We had brothers and sisters from both Manna and Caanan there last night. It was great to be able to mix with younger ones from Caanan la.... haha!Went t K at Green Box Plus afterwards. I think Green Bos Plus is the most popular venue for K in Sydney at the moment as it is the newest out of all the ones avialable. We had around 15 ppl there and we finished 3 bottles of champagne together. :) It was a great night and had a lot of fun. The only down side was that I smelled HORRIBLE after being in the K room for 3 hours. The smell is not only of smoke alone... it is a combination of a number of horrible smell!!!!!! I guess there is a trade-off in all things... including the decision to go to K. HAHA!

Prayer points for STM

1. Prayer meeting on Sunday - pray for the smooth running of the meeting, and also pray that brothers and sisters will come along and pray for the different STM trips together

2. Pray for the preparation of prayer letter, testimony, story book, pray that God will guide me through and help me in getting these completed

3. Pray that I can maintain an intimate relationship with God during this time of preparation and throughout the trip. Pray that He will lead my way.

4. Pray for our team leader, Jeremy, who is now doing a lot of preparations and coordination to cater for our group of 13. Pray that God will grant him all the wisdom and guidance in planning and leading us throughout the mission.

Sophie Delezio

在這3年裡,要經歷兩次重大的卜口車禍,31次龐大的手術,我相信就算是大人也未必捱得過,但只有5歲的她卻捱過了這一切,實在amazing! 她的determination to live 真的很inspiring.真的很不明白,為何一些人擁有美好的生命,會選擇自己放棄生命,但好似Sophie這些經歷了這麼好痛苦的,卻會這麼努力的渴望生存下去?這個小女孩以後的道路實在不容易走.很高興知道她今天能夠離開醫院,回到家中.我祈求神能夠讓她有機會認識祢.使她的生命有著祢所賜的平安與豐盛.(相關新聞可參閱 http://au.news.yahoo.com/060608/2/zabw.html)

Psalm 139 - 1 of my fav.

大衛的詩，交與伶長。）耶和華啊，你已經鑒察我，認識我。

我坐下，我起來，你都曉得；你從遠處知道我的意念。

我行路，我躺臥，你都細察；你也深知我一切所行的。

耶和華啊，我舌頭上的話，你沒有一句不知道的。

你在我前後環繞我，按手在我身上。

這樣的知識奇妙，是我不能測的，至高，是我不能及的。

我往那裡去躲避你的靈？我往那裡逃、躲避你的面？

我若升到天上，你在那裡；我若在陰間下榻，你也在那裡。

我若展開清晨的翅膀，飛到海極居住，

就是在那裡，你的手必引導我；你的右手也必扶持我。

我若說：黑暗必定遮蔽我，我周圍的亮光必成為黑夜；

黑暗也不能遮蔽我，使你不見，黑夜卻如白晝發亮。黑暗和光明，在你看都是一樣。

我的肺腑是你所造的；我在母腹中，你已覆庇我。

我要稱謝你，因我受造，奇妙可畏；你的作為奇妙，這是我心深知道的。

我在暗中受造，在地的深處被聯絡；那時，我的形體並不向你隱藏。

我未成形的體質，你的眼早已看見了；你所定的日子，我尚未度一日（或作：我被造的肢體尚未有其一），你都寫在你的冊上了。

神啊，你的意念向我何等寶貴！其數何等眾多！

我若數點，比海沙更多；我睡醒的時候，仍和你同在。

神啊，你必要殺戮惡人；所以，你們好流人血的，離開我去吧！

因為他們說惡言頂撞你；你的仇敵也妄稱你的名。

耶和華啊，恨惡你的，我豈不恨惡他們嗎？攻擊你的，我豈不憎嫌他們嗎？

我切切的恨惡他們，以他們為仇敵。

神啊，求你鑒察我，知道我的心思，試煉我，知道我的意念，

看在我裡面有什麼惡行沒有，引導我走永生的道路。

Prayer points for STM

1. Pray that I will keep my focus on God and on STM in the next few weeks.
2. Pray that I will have an intimate relationship with God throughout my preparation period and also throughout the trip
3. Pray that God will use my testimony, sharing and witnesses to touch people 's heart and to glorify His name
4. Pray for my testimony and prayer letter preparation
5. Pray for the prayer meeting on Sat. Pray that things will run smoothly and that brothers and sisters will be united in prayers.

Prayer points for STM

距離離開雪梨去短宣的日子只剩下24日,我決定從今天起在我的日記裡加上每天的短宣代禱事項.希望弟兄姊妹們也可以知道我的需要,為我代禱.Here are the prayer points for 5/6/2006:1. pray for health - pray that my allergies and sinus will not play up while I am aboard.2. pray for the hearts of those whom I will have a chance to talk to when I am in Taipei. Pray that the Holy Spirit will start to work among there hearts now.3. pray for preparation, pray that I will stay focus and be able to finish my preparation on time.

打邊爐@Leo's - FUN! :)

真的好感謝神對我的愛,也因著祂的愛使我能夠有一班在主裡相愛的弟兄姊妹.今晚在Leo家打邊爐,真的很開心.雖然我們都來自不同團契 (迦南+嗎哪),也有來自香港的桂芝在我們當中,但今晚真的讓我感受到在神裡一家人的感覺.父神,多謝祢!

26 days to go...

仲有26日就起程去台灣啦.我是否真正ready呢?求神教我曉得怎樣stay foucs!

平和型（隨和豁達，樂天知命）

今天在朋友的日記上看到他做了一個性格分析的測驗,我覺得很有趣, 所以自己也做了一份.其實以前我都有做過 Myers Briggs PT的, 但因為是很久以前做的了,所以已經不記得我的result是怎樣,不過我把今次這個分析的result貼在下面,我也在每一點上加上了我自己的看法,給你們作為參考.你們可以細心看看我的result是否準確. :)
平和型（隨和豁達，樂天知命）
您通常是溫暖、友善、忍耐、隨和、不好競爭，以及愛說話。您偏好和平、有組織、可預期而舒服的生活。(這點我覺得幾真，愛說話就一定是了　：ｐ)您喜歡配合環境，因而很難知道自己的優先次序，變成跟隨別人所希望而去做事　（我真的這樣沒個性嗎？），有時候甚至模仿別人說話的腔調、用詞，以及身體語言．(這點不是很認同，不過會留意一下）
優點：非常主動，具有眾多興趣和嗜好．您喜歡與人為伍，可以為了別人而發揮最具生產力的工作成效。（絕對認同）
缺點：您會「自我遺忘」，失去了什麼是對自己真正重要的覺察力．（可能是，不過我自己不發覺）您很容易分心，即使一個人時，亦有可能把高度優先的事情留到最後才做。看起來很像是拖延，但並不故意。（有時候我也真的可以超級懶的，不過不是常常發生）
愛情：您一旦擁有了關係，不會想到分離，而且會承諾去經營恆常不分離的關係。您既忠誠又慷慨，可以不帶妒忌或競爭心去支持並慶賀伴侶的成功，當伴侶的需要浮現時，更能給予回應（真的講得幾似我．．．不過這樣的忠誠曾經給了別人很多壓力，　所以不知道是好還是不好？！）
您的憤怒最有可能在親密關係中顯現。因為當您迎合別人時，自己就消失了。（這也真的曾經發生過．．．）「我有好長一段時間不知道自己的感覺，總是一片空白。當她投射出她所認為我感覺到的事情時，我們便陷入爭吵。我痛恨這種情形，但是對於引發我找到自己想要什麼確實有幫助。」
安定方位：成就型在安定的狀態下您會變得很專一，能在短時間內完成許多傑出的事。（認同！）
壓力方位：忠誠型當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得充滿恐懼，意識到所潛在的威脅，不但變得退縮，甚至唯命是從、好鬥、彆扭而且更頑固。（昨晚的事就已經是個好例子？）
建意：問問自己的想法，而非顧慮別人的意見　（這個還在學習當中，真的仍需努力）注意您對改變的不適感，學習歡迎新事物。（這個也還在學習當中）注意您的頑固和被動式抗拒　（這個自己不是很察覺到，我真的是這樣子的嗎？）
最渴望：和洽相處　（一定是！）最恐懼：有紛爭，有衝突　（也很準）最難達到的美德：果斷 (Right action)　（哈哈！可能因為我是個很「女仔」的女仔？）最難克服的執念：懶惰 (Sloth)　（嗯，這個應該是從小到大的問題，如果不是我懶，可能我已經在學業或工作上有更大的成就了！）
朋友們，你們認同以上對我的分析嗎？不妨留言給我知道．　：）

Who Am I... in Christ?

In The Lord Jesus Christ - I am secure... nothing can separate me from His Love! Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:35-9 KJV
In Christ, I am sure! ~ what a comforting and powerful reminder!

討厭的事

一直以來都很討厭跟別人爭論.無論argument到最後是我輸定我羸,我都會哭一場的,跟家人是這樣,跟朋友也是.近年來,當我與別人意見不合的時候,我很多時都會選擇沉默.可能是因為我stubbon,也可能是因為我怕事,怕面對;但其實我最怕的,是如果大家堅持下去,可能會說出一些更傷害到大家的說話.可能你會覺得我很倔強,不肯說出心底的感受,但並不是我不想講,不想解釋,而是無論我如何嘗試解釋,都不能令別人明白我所想的.也許是我weird,跟你們不同吧...有時候會覺得自己好像是一個正在學講說話的baby,好像用一些方法去表達自己所想的,但無論自己如何努力,別人也聽不懂.別人可能永遠都只能夠在猜我所想,所要的.這並不是baby的錯或是大人的錯,而是大家溝通的語言仍未能達至in-tune. 我就好似baby那樣,覺得frustrated,無奈.但到一天baby學到大人的語言的時候,大人就會聽得明,聽得憧她所表達的.問題是,是否每一個baby都會學會那種大人的語言?

Sorry...

Sorry..... 也許我能夠給妳我愛與關懷,並不是妳想要或是妳需要的.
Sorry.... 也許是我不懂得愛,不懂得關心.
好想讓妳知道我從來都沒有intentions去hurt妳或是跟妳compete.
也許我們跟別人的相處方式都很不同,我們可能也永遠不會在這方面compromise,但相信這也是我們unique的地方.
我真的珍惜妳在我生命裡.希望在日後的日子裡能夠有機會更深認識彼此.
我都祈求神保守,帶領,教導我們應怎樣相處.
就讓我們都定睛在祂身上吧!