OT Exam

There is only 10 hrs left till l I have to sit for my OT exam. To be honest, I am feeling VERY under prepared for it and have great doubt passing the exam. I haven't performed well all semester. A lot of things have distracted me from my study. I really can't blame anyone but myself for not studying hard.

Although I am feeling very unsure about the exam tomorrow, I have enjoyed the process of studying for it though. Just as I was preparing for the 8th century prophets topic then, I had the opportunity to read through Amos, a book which I have never familiarised myself with. In the past, I have avoided reading the books of the prophets as much as possible, as I don't really understand the oracles and visions presented in them. But now, I am able to understand these books a lot better and I actually found reading these books rather enjoyable. I have never thought I'd enjoy the book of Amos as much as I just did!

Although I don't know if I will pass the exam tomorrow or not, I guess I should be happy that I have actually learn something and that I am enjoying learning more about God's word and understanding it better. I guess I just have to keep on reminding myself how lucky I am to be able to study at college.

Psalm 63

A psalm of David. When he was in the Desert of Judah.

1 O God, you are my God,
earnestly I seek you;
my soul thirsts for you,
my body longs for you,
in a dry and weary land
where there is no water.

2 I have seen you in the sanctuary
and beheld your power and your glory.

3 Because your love is better than life,
my lips will glorify you.

4 I will praise you as long as I live,
and in your name I will lift up my hands.

5 My soul will be satisfied as with the richest of foods;
with singing lips my mouth will praise you.

6 On my bed I remember you;
I think of you through the watches of the night.

7 Because you are my help,
I sing in the shadow of your wings.

8 My soul clings to you;
your right hand upholds me.

9 They who seek my life will be destroyed;
they will go down to the depths of the earth.

10 They will be given over to the sword
and become food for jackals.

11 But the king will rejoice in God;
all who swear by God's name will praise him,
while the mouths of liars will be silenced.

May my lips never cease to glorify you, and that I will praise you as long as I live.

禱告 I Pray

This is surely my favourite song from SOP. The lyrics in this song is a GREAT reminder of God's love for me, He knows me best, and his grace is sufficient for me.

Miracle

Meeting you, knowing you, and dating you have been a miracle. I remember our relationship started by you asking what miracles I was praying for. I hope this miracle would last, but would it? I don't want it to end... I really don't...

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好想知道我在你心中有著什麼位置．有時候我覺得你真的很喜歡我，但有時侯我又會覺得你離我很遠．究竟你心裡在想什麼？你真的願意為我敞開心靈嗎？

Last day of semester break...

Tomorrow is the last day of my semester break. Am I ready for going back to college? I am not too sure. On the one hand, I am looking forward to Monday and seeing my friends and catching up with them again; on the other hand I know this coming semester is gonna be a really hectic one. Mondays and Tuesdays are gonna be a killer, as I have classes from 9am in the morning till 9:30pm at night. I will have a few hours break during the day, but it is still gonna be extremely tiring! Having lectures on Monday night means that I won't be able to attend Taiwan prayer group this semester. I am gonna miss the group for sure!

The 3 weeks of holiday have flown by quickly. A lot of things happened in this holiday. I have enjoyed spending more time with Pete. I had time to go to watch him play soccer, spent time with his family and spent time with him. :P I guess I probably won't have the luxury to spend so much time with him once college resumes, so was trying to make the most of the time I have while I am on holiday. I will have to figure out what I should manage my time when he comes back from his trip.

I had time to catch up with friends and old workmates whom I haven't seen for along time during this holiday as well. It was great to have the opportunity to go up to the Central Coast to visit Ella and her family. I also hung out with Kel quite a bit this holiday. It is very excited seeing how happy she is with her engagement, and how busy she is getting in preparing her wedding.

In this holiday, I have also made a decision to join the Grace Fellowship. I wasn't able to attend Grace Fellowship last semester, as I finished work late on Friday. (My part-time job at the orthodontist). This semester, I have decided not to work on Friday afternoon, so that I can make it to Grace Fellowship. So far I have been enjoying the studies we are doing.

I guess I am happy that I am going back to college on Monday, although I am not sure how ready I am. I guess I will be kept busy with college work, and won't be thinking too much of Pete while he is away. With the heavy college workload, hopefully the 4 weeks would fly by quicker than would otherwise.

A post 4 you...

Hope you will have a blessed and safe trip. Praying that the Holy Spirit guide you and help you in being a blessing to all those people you will meet along the trip. Also praying that God will bless you and keep you, and that you will have a even closer relationship with Him. Have a good one. Gonna miss you! See you in a mth's time.

Family...

Family is a funny thing. In the Chinese culture, we consider not only our immediate family, but also the extended family as part of "family". In my maternal family, all the cousins are quite close to each other. Vi and I are close to Andrew, Hubert, and Philip, because we spent a lot of time with them during our childhood year, that is before I came to Sydney. Now that all them are married with kids, we get along really well with their wives and kids as well. Although they all live in HK now, I see them often enough to be able to maintain a good relationship with them. It is always fun going back to visit them. I really enjoy spending time with them.

Then there are cousins like Phi, Felicia, Steph, Ems, and Jono whom I don't get to see very often as they live in other parts of the world. Although we don't see each other often, we are still relatively close to each other, and do try to keep in touch from time to time. I remember playing with Ems and Jono a lot when they were toddlers. It was always fun playing with them especially during Mid Autumn Festival when the family get together to celebrate. Felicia and Steph I don't get to see often, as they are in Canada, but I get along well with Steph last time we are in town. I guess we just click as we are part of the extended family. Felicia... I don't really know well, but ever since Felicia was little, people have commented on how much we look alike. I haven't seen Felicia for a long time, so it is hard to tell if this is true or not these days.

Then, there are the cousins who live here in Sydney - Enrico, Michelle, Lyndon & Kath, Roland & Gazal, Fi and Giles. Although I don't get to see them as much as I would like, we get along well when we meet up. We spent a lot of time together during our high school years living in the same neighbourhood and whenever we went over to visit grandpa. We used to live one street away from Enrico and Michelle, so we used to do a lot of things together on the weekends, like fishing in Bobbin Head, going to lunch with the clan after church on Sunday, looking after them after school when auntie and uncle were busy with work. Those were fun days. Although all of us have grown up and moved on with life, something never change..... we are part of the family and we will remain part of the family for the rest of our lives. I am thankful that many of the cousins know the Lord and are serving faithfully at church. I pray that the day will come when all the cousins have a personal relationship with our Lord Jesus.

2 years anniversary of my STM trip to Taiwan

It is hard to believe it has been 2 yrs since my STM in Taiwan. The memories of the trip are still quite fresh in my mind. My life has changed quite dramatically since coming back from the trip. I have quitted my job, and have started studying full time at SMBC. I have changed from attending the Cantonese congregation at CBC to the 11am English congregation. I have changed my ministry focus to kids ministry and have since taken on more responsibilities and been given lots of opportunities to develop and grow at church. I have been given a lot of support from my church and the pastoral team in responding to God's calling. All these things have happened without my own anticipation. God is great! From a girl who was so messed up in life, he changed me to whom I am today. Through Him, I am dead to my old self and have been made a new person. I can't imagine how life would have been if He wouldn't have given up on me. I am most thankful that despite my rebellion, He waited patiently for me to go back to Him.

Lord God, why are you so gracious to me? Thank you for your love and thank you for your grace and salvation. Please help me and guide me as I prepare myself for your service.

Completion of my first semester @ SMBC

I went to college last night to check my results and by the grace of the Lord, I passed all my exams. My first semester at SMBC has officially completed. Looking back at the last 4 mths, it amazes me the way God guided me and led me through. Last semester was a bit of a struggle for me.When I first started college, I had issues with my identity as a student, and was feeling a little insecure. After I came back from college mission, I struggled with my assignments and was doubtful as to whether I am really suited for college. 2 weeks before I had my final exams, I fell sick and was put on antibiotics. With all that happened, I came to a conclusion that completing my first semester was purely by His grace alone. It wouldn't have been possible without him interfering. I am not a good student, and definitely not smart! But God has chosen me and have given me this opportunity to attend college to study His word and get to know Him more. Sometimes I wonder why He is so good to me in giving me all these???? I pray and hope that I will learn more about Him in these 3 yrs that I will be at college and will develop into a faithful messenger for His kingdom.

Lord, thank you for being so great and gracious to me. You are truly wonderful. Please help me in knowing you more and loving you more...