Where does my help comes from?

Psalm 121

A song of ascents.

1 I lift up my eyes to the hills— where does my help come from?

2 My help comes from the LORD,
the Maker of heaven and earth.

3 He will not let your foot slip—

he who watches over you will not slumber;

4 indeed, he who watches over Israel

will neither slumber nor sleep.

5 The LORD watches over you—
the LORD is your shade at your right hand;

6 the sun will not harm you by day,
nor the moon by night.

7 The LORD will keep you from all harm—
he will watch over your life;

8 the LORD will watch over your coming and going
both now and forevermore.

I haven't been feeling well lately. Physically, I am not feeling well, as I am been having some gastro problems... emotionally, I am feeling a bit downcast and exhausted. I know why I am feeling this way, I guess it is because I have realised I am not doing well at college, and I am struggling. I feel helpless, lost, and don't know what to do. I enjoy what I am learning at college, but then I am struggling with my essay and assignments. Why?Am I really understanding the things taught, or am I merely sitting through classes without truly understanding what hav e been covered? As I ponder through some of the questions/ doubts in my mind, this Psalm came to my mind."... Where does my help comes from?My help comes from the Lord - the Maker of heaven and earth." Such comforting words from the scripture! I know I should learn to rely on Him more, but at the same time put in my best effort at college.At times, I find it so hard to put in my best effort.....I still haven't figured out why it is so hard for me to work hard. Is it purely because I am lazy,or is it because of some other hidden issues which I am unconscious of?

Dear Lord/ Father, I know I am not alone on this journey as you are with me on each and every step of it. Father, as I am struggling with my studies at the moment, I pray that your holy spirit will guide me and help me. Open my eyes to read your words, and please grant me the wisdom from you that I can have better understanding of your words.Father Lord, thank you for being my help, my shelter, my strength, my shield. Father, please help me and guide me... it is only by your grace and power that I can get through college. Please teach me and help me to trust and rely on you and not on my own ability. Amen.