Miss you.....

I don't know why we end up where we are now. Everything just happened so quickly in the last 2 weeks, I didn't even have time to comprehend all that has happened.

As I mentioned, I don't regret meeting you, knowing you, and being with you, although very briefly! In a way, I should feel upset about things, but I don't want to be angry with you.... I don't even feel this way.... I just don't want to lose you as a friend.

Will we ever be able to get back to where we were before Valentine's Day? I really hope that we can be cool friends again..... just like how we were. You are so fun to be with, and I truly enjoy your company. =)

I am kinda looking forward to Tues and Thurs.... as I will probably see you... but then I am also worry that I don't know how you will react. Are we still in good speaking terms? Can we still joke around as we did in the past?

I just hope and pray that things will get back to normal between us........

不是美女

自問自己確實不是美女．從小到大，都是「肥妹仔」一名．小時後，別人也許會覺得我可愛，但長大了之後，那些可愛就變得不再可愛了．雖然很多人也覺得我的輪廓不錯，但以一個亞洲人來說，我也的確比較高大．Personally, I think God created each of us and we are unique in his eyes. I believe it doesn't really matter what size I am, I am still precious. However, I found that is not the general conception. Often, people look at me and think that I am bigger than normal Asian because I am not discipline in my diet and my exercise schedule. However, that is not true. I have been watching out on what I eat ever since I started working in HK. I classify myself as being rather health concious. In terms of exercise, I admit that I was lazy earlier on, but these days I am doing sports at least once a week.

I reckon appearance isn't everything. It is more important to have good inner qualities, good personality, sense of humour, a good heart, and most importantly a passion and desire in following God. But how many people out there (especially guys) share this my view?

I guess being stressed at work and being sick for the last 2 weeks has really put me into a bad emotional state. I feel incompetent, frustrated, and weak. For some strange reason, I am feeling defeated, in many areas of my life. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but this is exactly how I am feeling at the moment. It feels like I don't know where the sunshine in my life has gone.

I pray that the clouds will be blown away, and the sun will come out again soon. Real soon.

Father, you are a soverign God and in control of all things. You know my every heartbeat, and you know my every feeling. Father, I pray that your Holy Spirit be there to lift me up. Teach me to not be anxioius of anything but to trust in you and lay all my burdens to you through prayer. Lord, thank you for chosing me to me your precious daugther. I commit my future into your hand. I trust that you have the best plan for me. Teach me to wait patiently as the plan you have for me unfolds.

In Jesus precious name, Amen.

一起走過的日子

雖然與你相處過的時間並不長，但當中卻在著很多有趣的，值得回味的片段．我們認識以後的很多對話，一起去過的地方，一起看過的電影，一起逛過的街，曾一起分享的各種美食，你睡著了的樣子，我到現在還全部記得．

懷念你的笑容，懷念你的聲音，懷念你的細心，懷念你的體貼．懷念你的cheekiness，懷念你對真理的那份執著，懷念你曾經在我不開心的時候哄我，懷念我共你曾有過的那種resonate的感覺．

真的很想讓你知道我想你．真的很想你！