A wonderful weekend! Thank you!

Spending 3 days with brothers and sisters, living together, learning, sharing, and praising God together was surely a wonderful way of spending a weekend. Thank you Lord for giving us another wonderful Manna camp. Thank you for the much needed break; time out from the busyness of life to spend time with you Lord. You are truly an AWESOME God. You know what I need, and you certainly listen to our prayers. Thank you Lord for strengthening me and helping me, and guiding me.

Thank you also for Rev. & Mrs Leung. Thank you for the messages you delivered to us through Rev. Leung. Father, I pray that you will continue to bless Rev. Leung in his ministries, providing strength and wisdom from you.

Father, I continue to pray for wisdom with dealing with others, praying that I will not be self-focus when I relate with people. Help me to learn to love others whole hearted, and not asking for self gratification. Father, I continue to pray for wisdom in knowing how to be friends with DT again. I sincerely commit this matter into your hand and pray that you will guide me through according to Your will.

We didn't make it to the final!

Our team lost the match tonight, which means that we won't be in the Grand Final next week! Tonight's match is actually the first match our team has ever lost in the whole season! But then the Giants team played really well. They were doing GREAT as a team and has certainly improved a lot.

I guess we were stressed about the game from the beginning. A lot of us were tired/ sick. I certainly wasn't feeling 100% for the game. I didn't think I play well tonite. I have done much better than how I played tonite. I guess I was feeling a bit anxious tonite, ços it was the first time I got to see DT after our big argument on Tuesday night. I didn't know how I will react or how he would behave, but luckily, I think I did well, and he was trying to be friendly as well.

God is truly an amazing God, and I know it is Him how is healing me and helping me get through things and not focused on DT anymore. I am still treating him as a friend, but I have certainly down graded him a lot.... into the 'normal' friends category. I guess that is what he wanted, and the most comfortable category for him. :)

I guess to me, it doesn't really matter anymore. I just want to be able to enjoy myself at volleyball or when we hang out with friends. I do hope that one day, DT and I can be 'normal' again and we can enjoy each others company and really hang out as friends. Perhaps starting from scratch is the only way. I know that I am off to a fresh new start already, but I guess it might take DT some time to get there.

I guess if I really want him as a friend in the future, I have to learn to be patience, and give him time to settle things and sort things out. I am most thankful for all the wonderful God sent angels which have helped me through, pray with me, and chatted with me when I was so confused, and frustrated with the situation. When I look back at things, I know that I am exposing myself into such devastation, as I wasn't letting go of my control and letting God leads. I am so grateful that I am starting to be 'me' again. :)

Having drinks at New Town tonite with the gang was REALLY enjoyable. I don't know if DT enjoyed it or not, but I have certainly enjoyed myself. I had a chance to chat with TL tonite, as I was sitting next to him at drinks. To my surprise, he was acting quite normal tonight, and I actually enjoyed my conversation with him! I guess I am starting to see other sides of him, and that is somehow changing my -ve impression of him. As time goes by, I am getting to know TL, Webber, and Janet much better. They can be quite friendly at times, but sometimes they are just not willing to open up to others.

The Thai food we had tonite from Sumalee was GREAT. I wasn't really hungry, so I only ate a little bit, but the guys have truly enjoyed themselves (esp. DT I guess! :)). It was truly enjoyable. If I can have dinner with DT in the future in such great atmosphere, and that we can talk normal and not go into any sort of argument, that would be soooooooooooo GREAT! I guess I just have to be patience and look forward to that day to come.

I can really tell that I am recovering, and I a soooooooo happy about it. :) Thanks for everyone who showed love and care (and concern) towards me in the last little while. Don't worry, I am ok now... and no matter what happen, God is there to watch over me, rite? I know I trust in a faithful God and He is faithful no matter what issues I am facing in life. This I really believe. I do hope that things are gonna be better and better from this point onwards. I really pray that I will have the wisdom to stay focused on God and nothing else.

Want to pray for DT too that one day, he will turn back to the Lord, and be able to enjoy the fullness of life in Him, the joy and peace of His gift of salvation.

Dunno what will happen in the next season... and which team I will play in yet.. but I am certainly looking forward to improving my skills and become a better player than what I am now. =)

Time to go.

The last 2 moths or so have surely been stressful and draining for me. I can't remember the last time I am this emotional. Perhaps there are personality clashes between us, perhaps, I have too much expectation of our relationship (either as friends or). I am tired....... extremely tired!

I can't recall another time when I am feeling as tired in dealing with another friend.... perhaps we can't be good friends.....perhaps it is not what you want.

As I said, it feels as if I am the only one treasuring and holding onto things. Thank you for sharing part of your private world with me for taking me to the dog park for breakfast. It was an enjoyable experience.

I have always looked forward in spending time with you, but things are telling me that it is time for me to go. I tried, but I have not succeeded.

I will surely miss you, and the time we spent together... Bye D............

你會想起我嗎?

將會有一個多星期見不到你，感覺真的有點怪．'Cos we have been seeing each other 3-4 times a week on average in the last 2 months or so. 你曾經講過你對我太好，我也覺得你對我很好，但我總覺得你對很多人（esp. gals)也是這樣．也許，自從你選擇了不跟我一起以後，我就一直覺得我對你來說跟本沒有什麼特別．也許，我只是一個揮也揮不掉我朋友而已．

有時候，我真的很想知道你對我的感覺是怎樣的．我是一個你所珍惜的人，還是我個可有可無的朋友？Am I really a pretty girl as you said? 在你見不到我的日子裡，你會想起我嗎？

我知道我會想你．．．Perhaps this is the much needed break for me to really think about what this all means to me... will this break leads to another ending?

Grey's Season 3

BTW, I have finished watching all of Grey's Season 3. GREAT STUFF! I really enjoyed it. Thanks DT for getting me the DVDs.

Morning walk with Indy...

I still get to see you quite a lot these days, as friends, but it feels like we are no longer communicating in the way we used to. Perhaps that is how things should be, right from the start. At times, I don't know what I should say, or what I should ask. I am scare of asking the wrong thing and annoy you again! I don't know how open up you would be, and what I should or shouldn't ask. I guess staying friends is not as easy as I thought it would be...

I enjoyed this morning though..... it was fun, although we didn't get to chat much. It is so strange. Even if we are doing something together, we don't really talk to each other. So strange man!!!

Oh well, thank you for buying me brekkie and taking me out for a walk. I know you have been shouting me a few times already. I promise I will treat you to a nice dinner one day, ok?