Our team lost the match tonight, which means that we won't be in the Grand Final next week! Tonight's match is actually the first match our team has ever lost in the whole season! But then the Giants team played really well. They were doing GREAT as a team and has certainly improved a lot.
I guess we were stressed about the game from the beginning. A lot of us were tired/ sick. I certainly wasn't feeling 100% for the game. I didn't think I play well tonite. I have done much better than how I played tonite. I guess I was feeling a bit anxious tonite, ços it was the first time I got to see DT after our big argument on Tuesday night. I didn't know how I will react or how he would behave, but luckily, I think I did well, and he was trying to be friendly as well.
God is truly an amazing God, and I know it is Him how is healing me and helping me get through things and not focused on DT anymore. I am still treating him as a friend, but I have certainly down graded him a lot.... into the 'normal' friends category. I guess that is what he wanted, and the most comfortable category for him. :)
I guess to me, it doesn't really matter anymore. I just want to be able to enjoy myself at volleyball or when we hang out with friends. I do hope that one day, DT and I can be 'normal' again and we can enjoy each others company and really hang out as friends. Perhaps starting from scratch is the only way. I know that I am off to a fresh new start already, but I guess it might take DT some time to get there.
I guess if I really want him as a friend in the future, I have to learn to be patience, and give him time to settle things and sort things out. I am most thankful for all the wonderful God sent angels which have helped me through, pray with me, and chatted with me when I was so confused, and frustrated with the situation. When I look back at things, I know that I am exposing myself into such devastation, as I wasn't letting go of my control and letting God leads. I am so grateful that I am starting to be 'me' again. :)
Having drinks at New Town tonite with the gang was REALLY enjoyable. I don't know if DT enjoyed it or not, but I have certainly enjoyed myself. I had a chance to chat with TL tonite, as I was sitting next to him at drinks. To my surprise, he was acting quite normal tonight, and I actually enjoyed my conversation with him! I guess I am starting to see other sides of him, and that is somehow changing my -ve impression of him. As time goes by, I am getting to know TL, Webber, and Janet much better. They can be quite friendly at times, but sometimes they are just not willing to open up to others.
The Thai food we had tonite from Sumalee was GREAT. I wasn't really hungry, so I only ate a little bit, but the guys have truly enjoyed themselves (esp. DT I guess! :)). It was truly enjoyable. If I can have dinner with DT in the future in such great atmosphere, and that we can talk normal and not go into any sort of argument, that would be soooooooooooo GREAT! I guess I just have to be patience and look forward to that day to come.
I can really tell that I am recovering, and I a soooooooo happy about it. :) Thanks for everyone who showed love and care (and concern) towards me in the last little while. Don't worry, I am ok now... and no matter what happen, God is there to watch over me, rite? I know I trust in a faithful God and He is faithful no matter what issues I am facing in life. This I really believe. I do hope that things are gonna be better and better from this point onwards. I really pray that I will have the wisdom to stay focused on God and nothing else.
Want to pray for DT too that one day, he will turn back to the Lord, and be able to enjoy the fullness of life in Him, the joy and peace of His gift of salvation.
Dunno what will happen in the next season... and which team I will play in yet.. but I am certainly looking forward to improving my skills and become a better player than what I am now. =)
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