God will make a way

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

http://my.homewithgod.com/heavenlymidis2/makeaway.html

不是美女

自問自己確實不是美女．從小到大，都是「肥妹仔」一名．小時後，別人也許會覺得我可愛，但長大了之後，那些可愛就變得不再可愛了．雖然很多人也覺得我的輪廓不錯，但以一個亞洲人來說，我也的確比較高大．Personally, I think God created each of us and we are unique in his eyes. I believe it doesn't really matter what size I am, I am still precious. However, I found that is not the general conception. Often, people look at me and think that I am bigger than normal Asian because I am not discipline in my diet and my exercise schedule. However, that is not true. I have been watching out on what I eat ever since I started working in HK. I classify myself as being rather health concious. In terms of exercise, I admit that I was lazy earlier on, but these days I am doing sports at least once a week.

I reckon appearance isn't everything. It is more important to have good inner qualities, good personality, sense of humour, a good heart, and most importantly a passion and desire in following God. But how many people out there (especially guys) share this my view?

I guess being stressed at work and being sick for the last 2 weeks has really put me into a bad emotional state. I feel incompetent, frustrated, and weak. For some strange reason, I am feeling defeated, in many areas of my life. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but this is exactly how I am feeling at the moment. It feels like I don't know where the sunshine in my life has gone.

I pray that the clouds will be blown away, and the sun will come out again soon. Real soon.

Father, you are a soverign God and in control of all things. You know my every heartbeat, and you know my every feeling. Father, I pray that your Holy Spirit be there to lift me up. Teach me to not be anxioius of anything but to trust in you and lay all my burdens to you through prayer. Lord, thank you for chosing me to me your precious daugther. I commit my future into your hand. I trust that you have the best plan for me. Teach me to wait patiently as the plan you have for me unfolds.

In Jesus precious name, Amen.

The Existence of MDGarage

I sometimes wonder how many people actually know this site exists. Number shown on the counter doesn't suggest this site has much traffic. I guess that doesn't matter for me. The reason I set up this blog is for me to drop down my thoughts at times, and also share with friends my life, my experiences, and some of the ups and downs in life. I believe that you can know people quite well from their writing, and I am hoping that others will come to know me better through reading my blog as well. I know that my writing is not interesting or good, but I try to be as sincere as possible when I share things.

Spending time in writing an entry here everyday is becoming a habit again. I am actually quite enjoying doing it, 'cos I guess it helps in getting my mind off the stressfulness of life for a few minutes each day. =)

Oh well, hope people who actually visit this blog will find my writing improved over time. ^^

Catch up @ Gloria Jeans

Met up with Matt tonight at Strathfield Gloria Jeans. This is the first time we met up since we got back from our mission trip. It actually feels weird that we used to see each other everyday while we were in TW, but even though we live only 30mins drive from each other, we still didn't manage to meet up in the last few months! It was good catching up with him though. He is surely a funny guy.

While we were at the coffee shop, it actually felt more like we were in Korean rather than in Sydney. I know that there are a lot of Koreans in Strathfield, but I didn't think the whole coffee shop would be fill with Koreans! Even the store manager there was Korean! I found that quite interesting...... I don't mind being among Koreans though. In fact, I quite enjoy the culture, the food, the Korean drama, Korean fashion, and the Korean songs these days. =) In fact, my good friend from high school whom I work with now is Korean as well!

Matt and I are going to do a presentation on our TW mission trip this weekend at the OMF Target Asia meeting. We will be showing part of the DVD which Jeremy made for us there. It will surely bring back a lot of good memories again.

Volleyball 13NOV06

We played against the junior girls rep team last night. It was the most enjoyable game we played since I joined the team. We won all 3 sets again. With the way we are going, it looks like we will get into the final this season. Although we won last night, I wasn't happy with how I played. My passes weren't good, and I wasn't setting the ball properly for spiker last night! I guess I need to work hard at training this Friday if I am to play better at next week's game.

Just got an email from Andrew this afternoon too. We are thinking of forming a team to go into the UNSW social comp next year. It is gonna be a fair distance for me to travel from work to get to UNSW for comp, but if we can really form a team of our own, I am willing to travel. It is not that I am not enjoying the team I am playing in, but I guess it is always better to play with people I know well. I suppose I play much better and more confidently when I am playing with people I know.

Oh well, see how it goes! But then, I am going to start college in February. I don't know if I can still afford to play sports 2 nights a week?

How to be an adult?

Read this from a newspaper article. I found the topic quite interesting. Have a read and see if you agree with them or not. Leave me a comment on what you think when you have time. Enjoy!

How to be an adult

Don't be affronted Being affronted (or offended, or complaining about 'inappropriateness') is no response for a grown-up. Only children believe the world should conform to their own view of it: a sort of magical thinking that can only lead to warfare, terrorism, unmanageable short-term debt and the Blair/Bush alliance

Mistrust anything catchy, whether it's the Axis of Evil, advertising slogans, or blatant branding ('New Labour'). Catchiness exists to prevent thought and to disguise motive. Grown-ups can think for themselves

Ignore celebrities, except when they are doing what they are celebrated for doing: acting, playing football et cetera. Skill does not confer moral, political or intellectual discrimination. (Except in the case of writers. Writers know everything and can lecture you with impunity.) If a celebrity is not celebrated for doing anything but being a celebrity, smile politely but pay no notice

We should not assume that market forces will decide wisely. The market is rigged by manipulation and infantilisation

Consider our own motivations. We may rail about being treated like children, ordered about, kept from the truth, nannied and exploited… but are we complicit in it? Could the reward actually be infantilisation itself?

Autonomy is the primary marker of being grown up. Babies, children and adolescents don't have any. We don't want to be in their boat

Suspect administration Its purpose is to free the organisation to do what it's meant to do: but the triumph of the administrators - the lawyers, the accountants, the professional managers - means that too many organisations now believe that what they are meant to do is administer themselves. This is a profoundly infantile attitude

Do not love yourself unconditionally. Such love is for babies and comes from their mothers. Ignore fashion, particularly in clothes. You don't want to look like a teenager for ever

Never do business with a company offering 'solutions' as in 'ergonomic furniture solutions which minimise the postural strain associated with sitting' (chairs) and 'Post Office mailing solutions' (brown paper). The word suggests we have a problem, but since we are grown-ups, that is for us to decide

Denounce relativism at every turn. Shouting 'not fair' is childish. Demanding respect without earning it is childish. Don't fear seriousness. Babies aren't allowed to be serious

Watch our language. Is there really much difference between a six-year-old in a fright-wig and his father's waders shouting 'I'm the Mighty Wurgle-Burgle-Urgley-Goo' and an ostensible grown-up demanding to be called 'Tony Blair's Respect Tsar'?

Hide Grown-ups are not required to be perpetually accountable, while the instincts of government and big business, both of which are, almost by their nature, great infantilisers, are to keep an eye on everyone all the time

Eat it up There is nothing more babyish than having dietary requirements
Never vote for, do business with or be pleasant to anyone who uses the words 'ordinary people'

Taken from'Big Babies' by Michael Bywater, published by Granta on 2 November.

Baby present

I went out shopping with Vida last night at Burwood. Vida needed to shop for a baby present for Angela's new daughter. We shopped at different shops, but decided to get something from Pumpkin Patch in the end.

The kids clothes at Pumpkin Patch are so cute!!!!!!! I am hoping that I will have niece/newphew one day. Man, my niec/newphew are surely gonna be spoilt!!! I am sure I am going be a really cool aunt and try to spend a lot of time with the kid. I am a big kid myself, ain't I? HAHA!

Vida has been married for almost 7 years already. We are all looking forward to her having kids, but I guess she has her own reasons for not having one yet. Perhaps she wants to ger architect license before having kids?

Anyway, really look forward to having a niece/ newphew.

Rejoice in the Lord.

Though the fig tree do not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.

Habakkuk 3:17,18 RSV

Rejoicing in You all the time is not easy, especially when situations in life are not working out the way I want them to be.

Father, please help me in remembering these words and teach me to rejoice in you day after day.

Grey's Anatomy Season 2

My season 2 DVDs have finally arrived!!!! Really look forward to having a full on "Grey's Anatomy" weekend soon!

Long Distance

Feeling a bit blue tonight. This song came to my mind just then. it is one of the songs I like singing when I go to KTV. I thought I would post it here, since I managed to find the lyrics.

The song was written by Mark Lui for Leon Lai a while back and was in Chinese, but Justin wrote the English lyrics for it in 2004 and was releasd in one of Janice's album.
(http://us.yesasia.com/b5/PrdDept.aspx/pid-1004008686/section-music/code-c/version-all/)

I really like this song, so would like to share with you all. Enjoy!

Long Distance (情深說話未曾講)
作曲：雷頌德
填詞：側田＠On Your Mark
編曲：側田＠On Your Mark

When I'm feeling blue
Lost without a clue
Sparks between our eyes
Nothing can be as true
Sing my life for you
Paintings that I drew
One plus one makes two
How I wish to caress you
Tell me where we're heading to
What we do may seem so crude
Where's the good in our goodbyes
The time you leaves'sThe time you break my heart in two

#Even though we're far apart
Send my love with all my heart
When you miss me at night
Look at the stars shining bright
For the time you pulled me through
All the things I do for you
Running tears from my eyes
Thinking how will I survive next goodbye

Repeat * # #

一起走過的日子

雖然與你相處過的時間並不長，但當中卻在著很多有趣的，值得回味的片段．我們認識以後的很多對話，一起去過的地方，一起看過的電影，一起逛過的街，曾一起分享的各種美食，你睡著了的樣子，我到現在還全部記得．

懷念你的笑容，懷念你的聲音，懷念你的細心，懷念你的體貼．懷念你的cheekiness，懷念你對真理的那份執著，懷念你曾經在我不開心的時候哄我，懷念我共你曾有過的那種resonate的感覺．

真的很想讓你知道我想你．真的很想你！

Sweet memories...

Watching the DVD the Jeremy sent through tonight bought back a lot of sweet memories of my mission trip in July. It was certainly a really momerable month in my life. The time in Taipei was like living in heaven for me. Although I was in a foreign land, without any friends or family around me, but I felt joy and happiness in my heart. Throughout the time I was in Taiwan, I was only focused on what I was in Taiwan for.... it is not about ME, but for Him alone! I guess life was so enjoyable then because everyone on team was working towards the same goals. There weren't 11 of us, each with our own goals and agendas, but 11 of us with the same goal and focus. During that time, each of us have put down our ''selves" and become a part of the team, a piece of jigsaw of a much larger picture.

Days in Taipei were happy days. I really miss Taipei and friends in Taiwan. I miss my team mates dearly. Each and everyone of them. I also miss the kids in Wanhua a lot. I really pray that I can return to Wanhua and be involved with the ministry again in a few years time.

Really looking forward to being in Taiwan again....

Feeling a bit blue...

Feeling a bit blue and stressed after having the chat with my boss yesterday. I have told him in the past that I want to move into the product management area, and he has suggested me a few times to consider going out into the field for a year or so.

The company is setting up a new field force, and my boss has asked me again to consider going out on the field to gain some sales experience. To be honest, I don't really want to go out in the field. I don't think I am a good 'sales' person, I have learnt from experience in HK that I am not! Also, I am only gonna work for another 12 mths before I start full time college anyway.

These days I am feeling a bit stressed.... on the one hand, my boss is urging me to think seriously about my career succession, and where I want to be. On the other hand, I know that I am leaving the work force in 12 mths time, but can't tell my boss about it. I have to try my best in performing well at my job, and should aim for promotion and stuff, but then I know that I am leaving soon. I really don't know what I should do!?! Deep down, I know that I just want to do well at my current role, stay in this role for another 12 mths and resign. I think as long as I am doing well at my current job, I am happy. But then, my boss might think otherwise.

I have been in this company for close to 5 yrs now. I like the people here and I guess I enjoy my role too. I want to stay at this company for another 12 mths, then go into college. I think there is really no point in me changing job now, since I will need time to adapt to the new environment, and by the time I get used to the new environment, it will be time for me to resign anyway.

In a way, I am really looking forward to my full time college days. I know that life won't be easy then, but I am sure I will enjoy it. It is surely something I am looking forward to.

I really pray that life at work will be peaceful and enjoyable for the next 12 mths or so. Please help me Lord in knowing what I should do and help me to perform well in my job.

Volleyball...

After searching for a team/ club to join in the last few weeks, I finally decided to sign up with Baulkham Hills Volleyball Club. I went to training last Friday night. Man... it was soooooooo much fun! I got to play with players from different grades. Man, some of them are really really good players! We had drill practice for 45mins and started playing games after that. I can't remember how many games we played in total, but it was already past 11:30pm when I left. We started at 8:15pm.... that means I played for at least 2 and a half hours non-stop! I can't remember the last time I played that much volleyball in a day! If I can keep up with going to trainning every Friday night, I am sure I will get much better at volleyball and get much better in shape too... haha! =)

Tonight's match was the first comp. match I played in years. It was quite enjoyable but not as challenging as I thought. I thought the game would be much more intense and past paced. But then I guess that was because I am only playing in C grade this season. The match tonight was even easier than the games I played on Friday night.The team which I got placed in was already one of the better teams in C grade, but yet not everyone can play well. I guess that is one of the reason why Joe, the coach, wanted me to play in B grade in the first place. Oh well, now that I am playing with this team, I am stuck for the rest of the season. I guess I should take this opportunity to really get myself more familiar with moving around the courts and improve my skills on different position and change to a B grade team for next season.

Our team won all 3 sets tonight. I don't know how we are doing overall (the comp actually started 3 weeks ago, so I am joining half way through), but hopefully we will get into the grand final for our grade at the end of the season. I don't know anyone on my team yet as this is the first week I have joined the team. They all seems like a friendly bunch though. Hopefully, I will get to know them better as the season goes on.

I really hope that I will become a more proficient player by next season.

Really hoping to play a good game with you next time we meet up, JS. =)

Making progress...

I am making progress on learning the different functions and things I can do on my blog. :) As you can see from my previous post, I have learnt how to post video clips on my blog! This will certainly add more flavour to my blog and make things more interesting for readers. From now on, I will try my best to take some video clips from my day to day life and share with you all. Hope you will find reading my blog enjoyable and entertaining in the future.

My little angel

I want to write something about my neice, Valerie, today. She is the daughter of my cousin who is one day younger than I. She really is an angel!

She is now 3, and is attending kindagaten at St. Paul's Convent in Hong Kong. I have gone back to visit her twice since she was born. I took some videos while I went back to Hong Kong in July this year. Here are some of them. She is really an agel. Check them out! :)

Testing out the new function on beta version of blogger....

I wonder if this work??? According to the instruction this email will be posted on my blog automatically. see if it works.....

IT WORKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am still learning all the things I can do with my blog..... there are so many things I can add to it.... i guess I will have to spend more time looking up the help section to learn more.....

New features in Blogger???

I am using beta vesion of blogger at the moment. There are some new features which I really like, for example the ability to choose whether the post is a private post or a public post. I am still not used to all the functions though, seems like it is gonna take me a while to figure it out!

First SMBC Student Newsletter

I received my first SMBC Student Newsletter today. I was quite shock to have received it, as I won't start my program till February next year! I guess as they have accepted my enrollment, my details are not on the student database and I automatically get included in the distribution list.

It is quite a nice feeling to have received the newsletter. I guess it reminds me of my new identity - a bible college student! Although I am only doing part time next year, I really feel that I am being a part of the SMBC community. This feeling is VERY different to when I was going to start my associate course in Morling College. I guess I wasn't ready then, and I didn't know what bible college was about back then. I did it out of my own will, and not the Father's will. This time, I know I am ready and I am most certain that this is the road He wants me to be on.

Although I think college life is not gonna be easy, but I am sure my Lord in heaven will grant me the strength and wisdom to get through. But then I guess I have to learn the balance between dependence on God in prayer and taking hard-headed practical steps towards the attainment of the goal.

The road ahead is not gonna be easy, but I am sure "...life is gonna be infinitely more interesting and fulfilling."

Addicted to Grey's Anatomy

It only took me 2 nights to finish all 9 episodes of Grey's Anatomy Season 1. For some strange reason, I have always enjoyed watching TV drama about hospitals, medical cases, and about doctors. Even since I was little, I have enjoyed watching series like Doogie Houser M.D, ER, All Saints, Medical Emergency, and some Chinese ones like 妙手人心s just to name a few. But out of all the ones I have watched, I think Grey's Anatomy really stands out from the crowd. I guess I like it better because it has some sort of a story line and it is quite funny and entertaining.

I really look forward to having season 2 on DVD and watching it. But then it is not available in Oz yet as it is still showing on TV here. I know it is avialable from online shopping, from places like Amazon.com, but then I will have to pay for shipping cost.... :P

Oh well, maybe one of my friends out there can perhaps get it for me as a present????? ^^

Extra long summer...

It felt like I didn't have a winter at all this year, as I went on mission trip in Taipei for a whole month in July. The weather wasn't too cold by the time I get back, and the temperature has started to reach the late twenties, mid thrities this month! I am quite enjoying this warmer weather, but I am missing the humidity I exepreienced in Taipei, strange uh? Who on earth would enjoy the sticky humid weather there????? I do!!!!!! 'cos the humid weather is better for me as a sinus and hayfever sufferer. The weather here in Sydney is just too dry.

I was searching for some information on Google this afternoon, and found out that the weather in US is quite cold already. According to the web, the weather in Chicago has already dropped down to between 3C to 11C. Sounds pretty cold to me! I guess they will be getting their first snow rather soon. What is it like to be living in that sort of cold weather and have to go to work/school in the snow I wonder? It must be a pretty nice feeling and experience. Don't know if I want to do it for too long though....... A white Christmas in the States would be really nice, but then I don't think it will happen in the next few years. I guess my priority shoudl be college for the next few years, I probably won't have much spare money left to travel. :( I will certainly miss travelling, but then I am thankful that I have already traveled quite extensive around the world up to now. :) I was thinking of participating the SOP conference at the end of 2007 in LA. Bill and Vida went last time and said it was AWESOME! I guess I will have to pray about it and wait and see whether it is possible for me to go then!

You Are Flan Pocky

Your attitude: modern and offbeat East meets west... sweet meets salty. You're a pro at bringing unusual combos together!

What Flavor Pocky Are You?

Your Personality Cluster is Extraverted Thinking

You are: Organized and logical - a master at puzzles Competitive in almost any arena of life Objective when necessary, but passionate about what you truly love Intolerant of excuses and incompetence

What's Your Personality Cluster?

Badminton + Gym

Feeling GREAT at the moment. I went to badminton last night and just went for a 40 mins work out at the gym. It really feels GREAT after a good sweat! Summer is coming, and I am DETERMINED to lose some weight and shape up for summer. =) oh well, I guess I give people an image that I am very sporty (I guess I am in a way, at least I used to be really sporty anyway =P), might as well live up to it. HAHA!

My colleagues have been telling me that it usually takes 21 days before something becomes a habit, so I guess I will have to try hard for the next 20 days or so to go to gym or do some sort of exercise after work.

I really hope that I will go back to the shape which I used to have during my post grad years!


This is a photo of me taken at Fishermen Bastion at Budapest in August 2003. As you can see I am a bit skinnier then, right? I am hoping that I can get back into that shape this summer.

Really have to work hard on it!

I believe???

I know that things wouldn't happen no matter how hard I try if it is not God's will. I know that He is in control of all things, and He knows what I am thinking and how I feel. I have told Him my thoughts, my pain, my confusion, my desire, and my struggles. I know that I have to cast all these to Him and let Him take control, but why am I not willing to let go 100%? Why am I wanting to do things my way in hope to make things work? I know that I am wasting my effort here, if it is not His plan and His timing.......

Learning to wait patiently and not do anything based on my own limited wisdom is hard, REALLY HARD! How much longer should I wait or do I have to wait? I know that You are letting me go through all these to train my patience. Afterall, I will have to learn to be patient before I can move onto the next stage, rite?

Please change my heart Lord, and please help me to let go and leave things at your hand. Please teach me how to wait patiently, teach me to focus on You alone, and let go... Please help me to let you take the lead and teach me to follow. God, may your will alone be done. Please grant me the strength and wisdom, the peace and joy in time of waiting. Amen.

Cell Retreat @ Blue Mountains

Our cell group had our yearly retreat at the Blue Mountains over the weekend. We rented a holiday house which was HUGE! Although it rainned the whole weekend, we managed to had a lot of fun staying indoor. We played games, I led bible study on Sat morning, and we had a nice BBQ dinner on the veranda on Sat night. We also gave Alison a suprise birthday celebration on Saturday night as well (it is her birthday today). All in all, it was a great weekend away. I am really thankful to be in this all girls group this year. We have developed good bonding and trust among the group members in the past few months. I pray that we will continue to build trust among us and be able to enocurage one another in our spiritual journey.

Here are a few picutres taken over the weekend showing how much fun we had...... enjoy!

Been lazy!!!!!!

It has been 2 weeks since my last blog entry. Man! I am so lazy these days!!!!!! When I was using HKFlash.com, I used to update my blog everyday! So, what have I been doing in these 2 weeks? Let me think back.......

I guess I spent quite a lot of time researching on information about bible colleges. I pretty much made up my mind that I want to do a Bachelor in Theology at SMBC. I wanted to do a Master level course at first, but then I thought I probably won't need to go up to that level with what I want to do in the future. I am feeling a bit relieved now that I know which course I want to do. The next challenge will be for me to save up the $15,ooo which I will need for my accomdoation when I go into F/T study in 2008! Changing my lifestyle and real work hard at saving up has not been easy, but I am sure with God's help I will be able to do it.

I am going to the Blue Mountains with girls from my cell group for weekend retreat tomorrow. We are going to a Japanese Bath House/ Hot Spring on Sunday morning as well. I am really looking forward to it. =) I will post photos from the trip when I get back next week.

Change my heart O God

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

You are the potter
I am the clay
Mold me and make me
This is what I pray

Change my heart oh God
Make it ever true
Change my heart oh God
May I be like You

Puzzled!!!

Am I hard to understand or am I speaking in a language from Mars? How come people don't seem to understand what I am saying these days?

Is there something wrong in the way I communicate or??????

God, YOU know what I am going through and YOU certainly know my struggles. Father, please give me strength and wisdom in dealing with things/ people which I am finding hard to deal with. Pray that I will have the patience in helping others in understanding me better and vice versa.

Delay in getting my new toy! :(

I was really looking forward to getting my new toy tonight from Gwai. He was supposed to pick it up for the shop for me this afternoon, but I got a call from him this morning saying there are delay in my card payment. As a result, I won't be able to get my laptop until Tuesday at the earliest. (I have to go to Villawood with her after work to have my credit card verified before the transaction can go through?!)

I have got volleyball training on Monday after work, so won't be able to go to pick up my laptop. oh well, I guess I just have to have patience in using my old one for another few days. Disappointed, but can't help it. :(

Good bye to my VAIO

It is finally time for me to say good bye to my SONY VAIO. I guess my VAIO is some what special to me, as it is the first laptop I ever bought myself. It was very expensive (cost me $3,999 4 years ago!).

I guess the trip to Taiwan, all the transit was a bit too much for my VAIO. It decided not to function properly since the first day I got back.... there were problems booting it up, problems in charging the battery, problems with the AC power inlet, and problems with it hibernating from time to time (I guess that is b/c of the problem with power supply)! I was hoping that I will wait till next year to buy a new laptop, but all the signs are telling me my VAIO is probably not going to last till then!

I am looking forward to spending time on my new laptop. I have decided to go with ASUS this time. (I guess I am really turning into a Taiwanese, huh??!!!) The model I am getting is A6J. It has all the things I wanted on a laptop, and the price is quite reasonable. :) Hopefully, I will enjoy it as much as I enjoyed my VAIO initially. :P

Transferring data from my old laptop to my new one is gonna be a tedious task.... I think I will just leave that to Gwai and Griffon to fix for me. Haha.

Beef noodles (牛肉麵) set for 245NT?????

I went to a Taiwanese cafe near church for lunch with some church friends after service today. I was delighted in going to a Taiwanese cafe, thinking that it is going to bring back good memories of my time in Taipei. However, when I looked at the menu, I was shock to know how much more we have to pay for a bowl of beef noodles which is not even half as tasty as the ones we had in Taipei! At the cafe we were at, a bowl of beef noodles costs $8, which is approximately 196NT. A standard pearl milk tea (500mL) cost $5.5, which is approximately 135NT. The cafe offers a beef noodles set at a discounted price of $10.50, equivalent to 245NT. That is nearly 4 times what we pay in Taipei!!!

I really miss all the good food we can find at Shi Da! The Nicholsons are truely blessed to be living in such a nice area surrounded with good restaurants and night market.

I miss Taiwan. I guess Taipei has became my second home. Really look forward to returning there one day.

Roland's wedding

I went to my cousin, Roland's wedding today. I really enjoyed it. It was such a beautiful wedding. Although it wasn't as grand as the Fiona's, but it was really warm and loving. While I was sitting in the chapel listening to their vows to each other, there were tears in my eyes. I was so glad that they are finally together and tied the knot after being apart for a few years.

Roland and Gazal met in Nepal while Rol was working with AusAid over there. Gazal is a Nepalese born in India but grew up in Nepal. In the past few years they have been living in different countries, but that didn't stop them in loving each other. I guess they are meant to be together and God has really blessed them in their relationship. I pray that God will bless their new family and that the family will walk with the Lord for generations to come.

While at the wedding, I had the chance to catch up with a lot of my cousins and relatives as well. Many of them were interested in how my trip was. I shared with a few of them the wonderful experience I had, and mentioned to them that I am hoping to go into bible college next year if God is willing. All of my cousins were excited in knowing that God has called me to serve Him ful time, they were all willing to pray for me regularly from now on. My cousin Lyndon and his wife Kath even mentioned that they are willing to support me on a monthly basis while I am at college and when I go out in the field. How encouraging is that!!!!!!

I am so blessed by the Lord in having such wonderful Christians in my extended family. They have certainly been a great support to me. I have asked them to pray for my parents that they will have peace from the Lord when I share my vision and intention with them. I know that God is a gracious God and He answer prayers. I am sure He will perform miracles according to His will. May His name be glorified alone!

Tomorrow is my first day back at church after being away for 5 weeks. Pray that I will know how to share my experience with brothers and sisters tomorrow and that my sharing will be a blessing and encouragement to them.

Frist post on Blogspot!

I have finally decided to migrate my blog to Blogspot in order to cater for all my friends who don't read Chinese. In the past, I have been writing my blog on a site called HKflash.com. The site interface is all in Chinese, but since I can read Chinese, I didn't think it would cause problems for friends who can't read Chinese! Oh well, I guess I am just not thinking through properly when I first signed up on that site. Anyway..... here I am at the new MDGarage (yet again!!!!! It has migrated from My Space on MSN to HKflash, and now to Blogspot!)

I hope by migrating to Blogspot, all of my friends will find it easier to keep in touch with me, know my whereabouts, and also share with me some happy or unhappy things that are happening in life.

I haven't been keeping my blog up to date since mission ended about 2 weeks ago. I guess I have been really lazy! However, I will try my best to make sure my post are up to date. Hope you guyswil enjoy reading my posts.

Made it!

Made it on time for the teleconference this morning. I actually got to the office at 7:50am. Felt GREAT! :) I enjoyed the quietness of the office at 8am in the morning. There are not as many people there and I can really have some time to myself (especailly as I am sitting in an open plan arrangement!)

I was given a new toy today as well - a new Dell laptop. I am happy that I am now assigned a new laptop and a proper VPN setup which means that I can work for home more often, but then I am feeling a bit sad on the other hand as I have lost access to quite a few things on my laptop, such as MSN Messenger, my Chinese input etc etc. Until I am able to download MSN Messenger again, I won't be able to get online from work :(

Hope that I will have my laptop restored to the same state as my old one soon!

0800 Teleconference

I have to attend a teleconference at work at 8am in the mornng, so decided to go to bed as early as possible. Waking up in time to make sure that I arrive at work b4 8am is a constant challenge for me every time I have to attend teleconference with the US.
Have to skip my diary entry today. Will write more tomorrow.

QT @ Cronulla

Spent half a day at Cronulla today with Nus and 叔叔．The 3 of us got there at around 1:30pm and headed to a cafe for lunch. After lunch we walked back to the beachside and we each found a place to have quiet time individually.

It is such a blessing and luxury to be able to spend 2 hours purely with the Lord, praising Him, meditating on His words and just spend time with Him alone!

Wish I can find more time to be with the Lord.

溫暖

外面的天氣雖然很冷,但內心卻感覺很溫暖.

溫暖，是因為見到家姐、Bill哥、媽咪、大舅父、大舅母他們都有出席今天為我短宣禱告的聚會；

溫暖，是因為有著愛我的弟兄姊妹為我的短宣旅程同心祈禱；

溫暖，是因為祢知道我心中的問題與需要而給我直接的訊息；

溫暖，是因為感受到神家中弟兄姊妹的關懷與愛；

溫暖，是因為知道，又感受到我是深深被祢所愛．

唯獨祢是在我生命中不能取替．

但願我一生都行在祢的旨意之中．

我也祈禱我身邊所愛，所關心的，也同樣感受到祢的大愛及在祢裡面那豐盛的生命．

願祢保守，賜福給他們．

降服

降服,
需要勇氣,
需要代價,
需要聽從,
需要禱告,
需要有盼望,
但最需要的可能是要肯走出自己的comfort zone.

父神,求祢教曉我們應怎樣降服於祢腳前,由祢引領,被祢所用.

Linda's suprise party

Went to Linda's suprise birthday party tonight. I can see that Andy has put in a lot of effort in making sure that Linda gets a good suprise and that everyone will have a good time. Dinner at Takeru was good. The food there was quite yummy and wasn't expensive as well. Haven't had dinner with such a big group of people except for fellowship dinner. We had brothers and sisters from both Manna and Caanan there last night. It was great to be able to mix with younger ones from Caanan la.... haha!Went t K at Green Box Plus afterwards. I think Green Bos Plus is the most popular venue for K in Sydney at the moment as it is the newest out of all the ones avialable. We had around 15 ppl there and we finished 3 bottles of champagne together. :) It was a great night and had a lot of fun. The only down side was that I smelled HORRIBLE after being in the K room for 3 hours. The smell is not only of smoke alone... it is a combination of a number of horrible smell!!!!!! I guess there is a trade-off in all things... including the decision to go to K. HAHA!

Prayer points for STM

1. Prayer meeting on Sunday - pray for the smooth running of the meeting, and also pray that brothers and sisters will come along and pray for the different STM trips together

2. Pray for the preparation of prayer letter, testimony, story book, pray that God will guide me through and help me in getting these completed

3. Pray that I can maintain an intimate relationship with God during this time of preparation and throughout the trip. Pray that He will lead my way.

4. Pray for our team leader, Jeremy, who is now doing a lot of preparations and coordination to cater for our group of 13. Pray that God will grant him all the wisdom and guidance in planning and leading us throughout the mission.

Sophie Delezio

在這3年裡,要經歷兩次重大的卜口車禍,31次龐大的手術,我相信就算是大人也未必捱得過,但只有5歲的她卻捱過了這一切,實在amazing! 她的determination to live 真的很inspiring.真的很不明白,為何一些人擁有美好的生命,會選擇自己放棄生命,但好似Sophie這些經歷了這麼好痛苦的,卻會這麼努力的渴望生存下去?這個小女孩以後的道路實在不容易走.很高興知道她今天能夠離開醫院,回到家中.我祈求神能夠讓她有機會認識祢.使她的生命有著祢所賜的平安與豐盛.(相關新聞可參閱 http://au.news.yahoo.com/060608/2/zabw.html)

Psalm 139 - 1 of my fav.

大衛的詩，交與伶長。）耶和華啊，你已經鑒察我，認識我。

我坐下，我起來，你都曉得；你從遠處知道我的意念。

我行路，我躺臥，你都細察；你也深知我一切所行的。

耶和華啊，我舌頭上的話，你沒有一句不知道的。

你在我前後環繞我，按手在我身上。

這樣的知識奇妙，是我不能測的，至高，是我不能及的。

我往那裡去躲避你的靈？我往那裡逃、躲避你的面？

我若升到天上，你在那裡；我若在陰間下榻，你也在那裡。

我若展開清晨的翅膀，飛到海極居住，

就是在那裡，你的手必引導我；你的右手也必扶持我。

我若說：黑暗必定遮蔽我，我周圍的亮光必成為黑夜；

黑暗也不能遮蔽我，使你不見，黑夜卻如白晝發亮。黑暗和光明，在你看都是一樣。

我的肺腑是你所造的；我在母腹中，你已覆庇我。

我要稱謝你，因我受造，奇妙可畏；你的作為奇妙，這是我心深知道的。

我在暗中受造，在地的深處被聯絡；那時，我的形體並不向你隱藏。

我未成形的體質，你的眼早已看見了；你所定的日子，我尚未度一日（或作：我被造的肢體尚未有其一），你都寫在你的冊上了。

神啊，你的意念向我何等寶貴！其數何等眾多！

我若數點，比海沙更多；我睡醒的時候，仍和你同在。

神啊，你必要殺戮惡人；所以，你們好流人血的，離開我去吧！

因為他們說惡言頂撞你；你的仇敵也妄稱你的名。

耶和華啊，恨惡你的，我豈不恨惡他們嗎？攻擊你的，我豈不憎嫌他們嗎？

我切切的恨惡他們，以他們為仇敵。

神啊，求你鑒察我，知道我的心思，試煉我，知道我的意念，

看在我裡面有什麼惡行沒有，引導我走永生的道路。

Prayer points for STM

1. Pray that I will keep my focus on God and on STM in the next few weeks.
2. Pray that I will have an intimate relationship with God throughout my preparation period and also throughout the trip
3. Pray that God will use my testimony, sharing and witnesses to touch people 's heart and to glorify His name
4. Pray for my testimony and prayer letter preparation
5. Pray for the prayer meeting on Sat. Pray that things will run smoothly and that brothers and sisters will be united in prayers.

Prayer points for STM

距離離開雪梨去短宣的日子只剩下24日,我決定從今天起在我的日記裡加上每天的短宣代禱事項.希望弟兄姊妹們也可以知道我的需要,為我代禱.Here are the prayer points for 5/6/2006:1. pray for health - pray that my allergies and sinus will not play up while I am aboard.2. pray for the hearts of those whom I will have a chance to talk to when I am in Taipei. Pray that the Holy Spirit will start to work among there hearts now.3. pray for preparation, pray that I will stay focus and be able to finish my preparation on time.

打邊爐@Leo's - FUN! :)

真的好感謝神對我的愛,也因著祂的愛使我能夠有一班在主裡相愛的弟兄姊妹.今晚在Leo家打邊爐,真的很開心.雖然我們都來自不同團契 (迦南+嗎哪),也有來自香港的桂芝在我們當中,但今晚真的讓我感受到在神裡一家人的感覺.父神,多謝祢!

26 days to go...

仲有26日就起程去台灣啦.我是否真正ready呢?求神教我曉得怎樣stay foucs!

平和型（隨和豁達，樂天知命）

今天在朋友的日記上看到他做了一個性格分析的測驗,我覺得很有趣, 所以自己也做了一份.其實以前我都有做過 Myers Briggs PT的, 但因為是很久以前做的了,所以已經不記得我的result是怎樣,不過我把今次這個分析的result貼在下面,我也在每一點上加上了我自己的看法,給你們作為參考.你們可以細心看看我的result是否準確. :)
平和型（隨和豁達，樂天知命）
您通常是溫暖、友善、忍耐、隨和、不好競爭，以及愛說話。您偏好和平、有組織、可預期而舒服的生活。(這點我覺得幾真，愛說話就一定是了　：ｐ)您喜歡配合環境，因而很難知道自己的優先次序，變成跟隨別人所希望而去做事　（我真的這樣沒個性嗎？），有時候甚至模仿別人說話的腔調、用詞，以及身體語言．(這點不是很認同，不過會留意一下）
優點：非常主動，具有眾多興趣和嗜好．您喜歡與人為伍，可以為了別人而發揮最具生產力的工作成效。（絕對認同）
缺點：您會「自我遺忘」，失去了什麼是對自己真正重要的覺察力．（可能是，不過我自己不發覺）您很容易分心，即使一個人時，亦有可能把高度優先的事情留到最後才做。看起來很像是拖延，但並不故意。（有時候我也真的可以超級懶的，不過不是常常發生）
愛情：您一旦擁有了關係，不會想到分離，而且會承諾去經營恆常不分離的關係。您既忠誠又慷慨，可以不帶妒忌或競爭心去支持並慶賀伴侶的成功，當伴侶的需要浮現時，更能給予回應（真的講得幾似我．．．不過這樣的忠誠曾經給了別人很多壓力，　所以不知道是好還是不好？！）
您的憤怒最有可能在親密關係中顯現。因為當您迎合別人時，自己就消失了。（這也真的曾經發生過．．．）「我有好長一段時間不知道自己的感覺，總是一片空白。當她投射出她所認為我感覺到的事情時，我們便陷入爭吵。我痛恨這種情形，但是對於引發我找到自己想要什麼確實有幫助。」
安定方位：成就型在安定的狀態下您會變得很專一，能在短時間內完成許多傑出的事。（認同！）
壓力方位：忠誠型當面對感情的壓力或情緒對抗時，您會變得充滿恐懼，意識到所潛在的威脅，不但變得退縮，甚至唯命是從、好鬥、彆扭而且更頑固。（昨晚的事就已經是個好例子？）
建意：問問自己的想法，而非顧慮別人的意見　（這個還在學習當中，真的仍需努力）注意您對改變的不適感，學習歡迎新事物。（這個也還在學習當中）注意您的頑固和被動式抗拒　（這個自己不是很察覺到，我真的是這樣子的嗎？）
最渴望：和洽相處　（一定是！）最恐懼：有紛爭，有衝突　（也很準）最難達到的美德：果斷 (Right action)　（哈哈！可能因為我是個很「女仔」的女仔？）最難克服的執念：懶惰 (Sloth)　（嗯，這個應該是從小到大的問題，如果不是我懶，可能我已經在學業或工作上有更大的成就了！）
朋友們，你們認同以上對我的分析嗎？不妨留言給我知道．　：）

Who Am I... in Christ?

In The Lord Jesus Christ - I am secure... nothing can separate me from His Love! Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? shall tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? As it is written, For thy sake we are killed all the day long; we are accounted as sheep for the slaughter. Nay, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:35-9 KJV
In Christ, I am sure! ~ what a comforting and powerful reminder!

討厭的事

一直以來都很討厭跟別人爭論.無論argument到最後是我輸定我羸,我都會哭一場的,跟家人是這樣,跟朋友也是.近年來,當我與別人意見不合的時候,我很多時都會選擇沉默.可能是因為我stubbon,也可能是因為我怕事,怕面對;但其實我最怕的,是如果大家堅持下去,可能會說出一些更傷害到大家的說話.可能你會覺得我很倔強,不肯說出心底的感受,但並不是我不想講,不想解釋,而是無論我如何嘗試解釋,都不能令別人明白我所想的.也許是我weird,跟你們不同吧...有時候會覺得自己好像是一個正在學講說話的baby,好像用一些方法去表達自己所想的,但無論自己如何努力,別人也聽不懂.別人可能永遠都只能夠在猜我所想,所要的.這並不是baby的錯或是大人的錯,而是大家溝通的語言仍未能達至in-tune. 我就好似baby那樣,覺得frustrated,無奈.但到一天baby學到大人的語言的時候,大人就會聽得明,聽得憧她所表達的.問題是,是否每一個baby都會學會那種大人的語言?

Sorry...

Sorry..... 也許我能夠給妳我愛與關懷,並不是妳想要或是妳需要的.
Sorry.... 也許是我不懂得愛,不懂得關心.
好想讓妳知道我從來都沒有intentions去hurt妳或是跟妳compete.
也許我們跟別人的相處方式都很不同,我們可能也永遠不會在這方面compromise,但相信這也是我們unique的地方.
我真的珍惜妳在我生命裡.希望在日後的日子裡能夠有機會更深認識彼此.
我都祈求神保守,帶領,教導我們應怎樣相處.
就讓我們都定睛在祂身上吧!

痛...

沒想過事情會如此發生,
沒想過你覺得我是這樣的,
聽著你所講的,心裡只有一種感覺 - 痛
眼淚也不其然大顆大顆地滾下.
也許我們都為到某人某事變得太敏感,
也許我們都需要退後一步回看整件事,
也許我們都要靠在神身邊療傷.

期望我們都能夠得知神的心意,
叫我們的日子都有著神賜的喜樂與平安.

點解?

唔知點解,但阿pat今日同kar食完lunch之後,我就好似變得無嘢同佢講咁.或者kar同佢講嘅嘢又真係對佢有很多反思?
Anyway, it is good that Kar's sharing has been an encouragement to him la...
I know I shouldn't feel weird about Kar and Pat getting close, but then I felt that Pat is my friend and I want to be his good friends always la... pretty silly and childish, actually.....
From what Pat said on MSN afterwards, it really makes me wonders what is really meant by 生命影響生命. I strongly believe that God wants to use my life and Kar's life to be blessings to others. I hope that our witnesses and our life sharing has been encouraging and inspiration to Pat. It is really not our own abilities, but God work done through us.
May all the glory and honour be to our Father in heaven.
And I do pray that God will continue to mould me and Kar into a vessel pleasing in His eyes and be a blessing to others.
Also pray that the Holy Spirit will speak to Pat and guide his way.....
In Jesus name!

Thank you Lord!

感謝父神叫Elsa的手術都能順利完成.父神祢是慈愛信實的神,縱使路是崎嶇難行,但我深信祢會伴著我們走過.求父神祢繼續保守,祝福Elsa,幫助她早日復原.也祈求神減低她在整個治療過程中的痛楚.父神,求祢堅強她的信心,叫她就算走過死陰幽谷,也不怕遭害,因為祢的仗,祢的杆都成為她的安慰.父神,願祢的旨意成就在Elsa身上.Thank you Lord!

Elsa,加油!

今天是ELSA到醫院進行切除胃癌手術的日子.手術過程最少要4個小時,所以現在(12:25)仍應在進行當中...
祈求主耶穌在整個過程中掌權,求祢在治療過程中減少ELSA的痛楚.主神,我相信我們在這場battle之中已經得勝,因為是祢帶領ELSA以及整個教會在這件事中倚靠祢,經歷祢.求主醫治的大能臨到ELSA身上,叫別人在她身上都見到祢的大能,歸榮耀給祢.
父神,這兩天也是SARAH跟SOPHIA的生日.她們今年的生日都過得特別難忘,因為她們一家人都在面對著ELSA的病,求祢引領他們3個孩子在這事中經歷祢,倚靠祢,因祢是信實的,祢的應訐永遠不變.
父神,願祢祝福保守他們一家. Amen.

靈裡的戰友

能夠有著妳成為我靈裡的戰友真是神給與我的福氣.期望著我們在未來日子裡面都能夠互相扶持,互相守望.

能夠跟妳在今天晚上同心合意的祈禱,真是一樁很美的事.希望我們從今以後都能夠繼續有定期同心禱告的機會.

THANK YOU DEAR FOR BEING THERE FOR ME!

Volleyball @ HKWARD

昨天又是我們每月一次的CBC Sports Day. 一連兩次的sports day, 我都有參與打排球. 我已經很久沒有打過排球了.好像在我year 2開始,已沒有真正的打過一場究比賽. To be honest,我真的很喜歡打排球,因為排球是一種講求團隊合作性的運動.你沒有可能一個人自己去打排球!我最近才發現, 原來在我的朋友當中也有很多喜歡打排球, 和打得很不錯的人, 好像是Leo, Gwai & Pat. 昨天就有機會跟Gwai & Leo 打了兩個小時排球.在隊中還有剛認識不久的SiuMan.跟Leo和SiuMan已經是第二次同隊, 所以在配搭方面也漸漸有默契.起碼我set到球的時候,他們也可以strike.本來昨天Pat也說他會來跟我們一齊打球的,可惜因為他4點才來所以沒機會打game.他來到的時候我們的網也已經拆了! :( 很可惜沒機會跟他好好的打一場,只有期待下一次了. 經過了兩小時不斷打排球以後, 我的手現在變得又紅又腫,還有一點點痛.也許,我真的是太久沒打了吧,所以手還未能適應.雖然現在手有點痛,但是我還是期待著下次sports day的來到,再次打排球. :) 我想,我多打一點以後,手就應該會沒事了吧???!!!

p.s. 那個遲到兩次的某某:你也應該好好請我吃飯,或是出去玩,當作補償了吧?

人與人之間的距離

人與人之間,都有著不同的距離.有些人,像跟兄弟姊妹,老公/老婆,男女朋友,家人的距離, 一般都是很近的.

在友情,感情的不同階段,我們與他人的距離,都會有著不同的變化.當一個人成為你的好友,或是你的最愛的時候,你不期然的也很願意與他/她距離拉近,讓他/她進入你的personal bubble 之中.

與每一個不同的朋友,都有著不同的距離.有些人,你與他的距離,最好是永遠停留在3尺半之外.再多一點,或少一點,都會另大家覺得一舒服,有壓迫感.有時候,當我們單方面想把距離拉近,但到頭來卻會越拉越遠,都最後可能連原本的距離都沒有了.

究竟我與你的那個最comfortable的距離,又會是有多近?

懂得快樂

今天從台灣朋友寄來的email中看到這篇文章,跟大家分享一下:

懂得快樂

人生所追逐的最終目的只有二個字--「快樂」。記得有一次我吃飯時，突然間在潔白的米飯中發現一個黑點，仔細一看，是一隻蟑螂，當時我的第一個反應是還好屍體還很完整。於是我請老闆過來，用很愉快的語氣告訴他：「老闆，飯很好吃。」老闆：「哪裡，哪裡，你過獎了。」「這裡，這裡，你看連蟑螂都要來分一杯羹。」老闆一看，果真有一隻喪生稻米之鄉的蟑螂，二話不說，立即換上一碗新的白飯，並附贈一杯飲料。當時，我的朋友就覺得我很奇怪，碰到這麼倒楣的事，他們都已經快食不下嚥了，我還能心平氣和的跟老闆開玩笑，一副樂在其中的樣子。事實上，我的快樂是其來有自！因為蟑螂本來就在飯裡面，我只要去吃這碗飯，就只有三種可能：一、沒發現，直接將蟑螂吃到肚子裡；二、吃掉半隻蟑螂以後才發現；三、還未鑄成大錯前就發現。我是何其幸運碰到第三種最佳狀態，又可以讓我只花一份錢，卻吃了二碗飯，還賺了一杯飲料，當然快樂得不得了。或許很多倒楣的事件發生之際，不愉快的感覺就油然而生，這是人之常情，我們也不奢求自己是聖人，不能生氣或悲傷，但我們總可以要求自己，事後再想想有沒有什麼值得慶幸的事，如果有，想辦法找出來，如此一來，生活中就會充滿著喜悅。總之，快樂不是用追求得來的，而是發現得來的，凡事總有好的一面，只在於我們願不願意去發現而已；快樂的人懂得惜福，他們從不埋怨自己缺少什麼，而會去珍惜自己擁有什麼。朋友！你發現快樂了嗎？別忘了與人分享喔！風來了，竹子的枝幹被風吹彎；風走了，竹子又站得直直的，好像風沒來過一樣；雲來了，在潭底留下一道影子；雲走了，潭底乾乾淨淨的，好像雲沒來過一樣；竹子不會因為被風吹過，就永遠直不起腰來；清澈的潭水，也不會因為雲飄過，就永遠留住雲的影子。同樣的，心胸寬大的人，不會因為別人兩句不禮貌的話，就颳起永遠的狂風巨浪；也不會因為別人不禮貌的行為，就在心底刻下無法磨滅的傷痕。像清澈的潭水一樣，雲過了，不留痕跡。像堅韌的竹子一樣，風過了，不留痕跡。

願 神賜福您敬祝 喜樂平安

Too tired to write....

從餐會回到家中,已經是12:00am.本來好想將一個故事寫下,但實在太累.只好留待明天.

37 days to go...

距離我起程去台灣的日子只剩37日.我一方面很期待著可以再次到台灣,但另一方面卻覺得自己還沒有好好prepare.

在過去的2-3個月裡,雖然我知道我會去台灣,但除了禱告及參加一些訓練課程外,我都不知道我還可以怎樣準備.

但到了這個月,所有有關STM trip的email突然接種而來.今晚當我坐低數一下我在這一個月裡面要做的preparations,又真的有點嚇人!就等我趁這機會list out 一下:

下星期的某日: Meet up with Matt (Matt係來自wsccc,會和我一齊去台灣短宣的弟兄)
3/6- Taiwan Team Sharing 7-9:30pm @ SMBC
10/6- Catch up with Nicholson(Irene and Phil Nicholsons 他們是台灣omf的field director,他們剛好回sydney述職,所以我在台灣的時候他們不在台灣）
11/6- 短宣祈禱會 3:30-5:00 @ CBC
11/6 - Testimony due in (要在12/6 之前將我寫的見證email給Jeremy,我在台北的team leader)24/6- Dinner catchup with Nicholson @ Ashfield

Things to I need to complete b4 departure:Picture book
Serve Taiwan Cultural Assignment

看來我真的要好好focus and get my act together to get all these done!

雖然好似有好多事情未prepare好,但有一點卻令我十分感動的,就是我知道在各地都有著很多我認識的人及一些我不認識的人正在為我,為我們的短宣隊,為在台灣的事工禱告.我相信神是我們的leader,有著各人的禱告支持,我深相神一定會在這個trip當中成就祂的美意的.

Thank you all for your prayers, and thank you lord for your guidance.

Gonna miss you...

今早收到凱寄來的ｅｍａｉｌ，說她已從ＮＹ回到ＨＫ．
在ｅｍａｉｌ裡面，她等到她將會回來ＳＹＤ收拾，以及把她的「阿仔」賣掉，然後再回ｈｋ．７／８份再次回ＳＹＤ考試．
記得阿凱是我轉到ｃｂｃ之後不久就認識到的朋友．其實我們在我轉到ｃｂｃ之前已經見過，因為她也是我姐的ｃｏｕｒｓｅｍａｔｅ．我在ｃｂｃ的第一年裡，我跟ｇｗａｉ，凱，ｋａｒ，ｅｌａｉｎｅ　都是同一家的，所以他們也順理成章的變成我在ｃｂｃ最最要好的朋友．
In a sense, they have all helped me in 爬番起身.
I click especially with Hoi, 'cos she has been through a lot as well in her life, and she understands that as human, we have our weaknesses even though we are God's people.
Hoi is a person who knows a lot about my dark side and still accept me as a true friend, accpets me as whom I am...... all my good and my bad. She is forever caring to her friends and like Gwai, she is EXTREMELY willing to help her friends out. As her friends, you can be sure that you will be well looked after.
I treasure the support we have been giving each other in the last 4 years, I treasure all the worship we did together, I treasure all the time we spent serving together, I treasure all the trips we have went on together, I treasure the Sat brunch at Well-Connect..... all these I am going to miss whe she go back to HK for good...
Hoi: I know that going back to HK for good is something that you have talked about for a long time, even since I got to know you think... I guess the day has came for you to finally leave us for good. You will be well missed by all of us.... but I am sure you will prosper a lot more in your career in HK and also I know that spending time with Por Por is your priority now. I do hope that you will continue to seek and serve God with passion when you are back in HK.
GONNA MISS YOU FOR SURE!

選擇...

人生之中有好多好多選擇,
開心唔開心都係一種選擇.
不同的人，面對相同的問題，都會有不同的反應，不同的選擇．
有些人對著問題，可能會好唔開心，好愁，
有些人面對一樣的問題，仍然可以每天過得開心，快樂．
其實，並不是問題本身令我們快樂或不快樂，
而是我們選擇怎樣去ｐｅｒｃｅｉｖｅ那些問題，又選擇怎樣去回應．
有時候，可能是我們選擇太過ｆｏｃｕｓ在一點上面，令我們看不清整幅圖畫而不開心．
當我們學會把視線放開一點的時候，也許我們看到的東西會不一樣．
今天，你的選擇又是如何？

Don't quit

今天從Elaine寄來的email中看到這poem,覺得是幾有意思的:

When things go wrong as they sometimes will.
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill.
When funds are low and the debts are high.
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh.
When care is pressing you down a bit.
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns.
As everyone of us sometimes learns.
And many a failure turns about.
When he might have won had he stuck it out:
Don't give up though the pace seems slow;
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out:
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt
And you never can tell how close you are.
It may be near when it seems so far:
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit:
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

- Author unknown

放棄與否,都是一個選擇!

思念

思念你對神的認真,
思念你對事奉的熱誠,
思念你的笑容,
思念你的幽默,
思念你對別人的關懷,
思念你在不同方面的恩賜...

我所認識的那個你究竟跑到那裡去?

期望再次看到你的笑容,
期望再次跟你生命交流,
期望再次跟你一起事奉,
期望再次跟你開懷大笑.

等待著你早日歸位!

幸福

幸福 並不是因為銀行有很多錢
幸福 並不是因身邊有愛我的人
幸福 並不是因為有車有樓有番狗

幸福 是因為找到了賜生命的源頭
幸福 是因為我知道有著祢已足夠

禱告...

禱告 因為我渺小
禱告 因為我知道我需要
明瞭 祢心意對我重要...
禱告 已假裝不了
禱告 因為祢的愛我需要
祢關懷 我走過的祢都明白
有一些事我只想要對祢說,
因祢比任何人都愛我.
痛苦從眼中流下,
我知道祢為我擦.
在早晨我也要對祢說
主耶穌今天我為祢活
所需要的力量
祢天天賜給我
祢恩典 夠我用

真的很喜歡這首歌,因為它就好像道出了我的心聲 :有些事我真的只想對祢,因為祢比任何人都愛我,我走過的祢都明瞭...

有很多時候,當我覺得我的生命走進了死角的時候,當我沒有能力解決問題,當我覺得沮喪、無助之時,我就只想跟祢傾訢.人的智慧能力有限,但祢卻是那位大能的主.當我們軟弱無能的時候,祢就彰顯祢的能力,去醫治,去扶助,去安慰.

主神,求祢叫孩子見到自己的渺小,叫我不要用自己的能力去處理、解決事情,求孩子都能在祢裡面得著能力,面對生命的挑戰.

A transformed life in SYD

好相信是祢把我帶回雪梨.我最初回來Sydney是因為我剛失去我的所愛,但沒想到祢卻因為這樣,叫我現在得著更多.雖然這數人數年間我也有走遠過,跌倒過,布令祢傷心、流淚,但現在我深深的明白到祢讓我經歷這一切,是要我將生命的主權交回祢手中.是祢把我召回祢的羊圈中.祢也更新了我的生命,使我能夠成為祢合用的精兵.父神,祢確實是那位拯救靈魂,賜新生命的主.是因為祢的厚愛,使我生命變得豐盛,變得精彩.父神,求祢教導及幫助我走在光明之中,叫我的腳步永不偏離,又求神繼續陶造我的生命,使我能成為合祢心意的器皿. AMEN!

The rebirth of my VAIO

經過一個多星期的搶救,我的VAIO終於都重生了!!!!!!!!Reformat過之後,我的VAIO就好似變回laptopBB一樣,有好多programs都要重新安裝.Although it is a really tideous process in re-installing all the program again, it really is a nice new start!!!!!在此,我都好想藉此機會多謝阿龜和Griffon的愛心及幫助,使到我的VAIO得到重生. THANK YOU GUYS! YOUR EFFORT IS MUCH APPRECIATED!!!!!!!

大昏迷

昨晚瞓咗差不多12小時才醒來,當我瞓醒見到鐘上見寫著11:02am的時候,真的有點不相信!!!我第一時間去找我的mobile出來求證,發覺真係已然11:04am,那一刻真的有點"想死"! 11:04am,代表我已經miss咗祟拜,又miss咗bible study,then what is the　ｐｏｉｎｔ　of getting to church then? 不過我最後都返咗教會，因為約咗ｇｒｉｆｆｏｎ幫我整ｌａｐｔｏｐ．
已經唔記得上一次瞓到咁晏係幾時，不過一定係好耐好耐之前嘅事，耐到我都唔記得啦．
Is this a sign that I should get more sleep these days????

飯局...

我發覺到這兩年間，我跟朋友們的飯局模式，跟以前的很不同．大學時代，以及在HK工作的那段時間裡的飯局，都總是一大班人出來一起嘻嘻哈哈的，但現在的飯局，通常都是三兩知己出來談心，聚舊，深入交談的那種．是因為人大了變得成熟了，深思熟慮了，還是因為朋友已經再沒有以前那麼多，剩下來的都全是知己或是弟兄姊妹？
雖然現在每次跟朋友飯局雖然少了，但卻更ｅｎｊｏｙ當中能夠有的交流與分享．或許我已經長大了，過了那個一班人出來嘻嘻哈哈的年紀了？？？

Click...

是因為我們都有著相似的靈命成長過程?
是因為我們曾經一起事奉?
是因為我們都是標準"思想家"?
是因為我們都曾經走遠,又再走近?
無論是因為什麼原因, 總覺得我們是可以click的好朋友．
多謝你對我的信任與及openness, 更高興的是我們是在天國路上的同路人．
期望我們在以後的日子裡能夠繼續有著濃厚的情誼，彼此鼓勵，彼此守望，在那擺在我們前頭的路程上同路．
You will be in my prayers!
p.s. hope that I didn't say or ask too many things I should have to make you feel pressurised. :P

兩件喜事...

Heard 2 good news from my friends since last night, which I thought is worth noting down:

Pat & Tica are having a baby!!!!!!!!! After being married for around 5 yrs now, Pat told me last night that Tica is 15 weeks pregnant. They are the X number of friends I know who are having/ or had baby/ies. I guess that really tells the fact that I am getting old and turning into an aunty, uh??????? Oh well, I guess the other explaination to this situation can be that my friends all got married at a really young age, whereas I am still waiting for that person person God has prepared for me to appear... haha!

Ariel has finally been granted her permanent residency here!!!!!!!! I mistakenly called Ariel sister, Bonnie, instead of Ariel this afternoon as Ariel has given her old mobile phone to her sister who is on a working holiday in Sydney for a year. Bonnie told me that Ariel just got the letter today saying that her VISA has been approved. Ariel sounded SOOOO excited when I spoke to her on the phone. Afterall, she has wanted to stay in Sydney for good ever since the days when we were doing our Master at UNSW! I am sure it is gonna be a new chapter in life for her, now that she is calling Sydney home. 加油 Ariel! Ｉ am sure you are gonna have a wonderful life in Sydney.

MSN...

這陣子我跟朋友聯絡，除了用ｍｏｂｉｌｅ之外，大部份都是用ｍｓｎ的．不經不覺，我ｍｓｎ上面ｃｏｎｔａｃｔｓ的數目由最初的十數個人，倍增到一百多人，當中有在ｓｙｄｎｅｙ的，在台灣的，在香港的，在ｂｒｉｓｂａｎｅ的，在中國的，到處也有．說真的，現在的我，如果朋友沒有用ｍｓｎ，我都比較少聯絡，可能是因為我變得越來越沒耐性等待別人的ｅｍａｉｌ回覆，而我亦不是一個很喜歡跟朋友講電話的人吧．記得我是從９３年開始用ｉｎｓｔａｎｔ　ｍｅｓｓｅｎｇｉｎｇ的，當時用ｉｃｑ．經過這麼多年的變化，現在ｉｃｑ以被我打入冷宮，我只會很偶爾到那裡看看我有沒有留言，ｍｓｎ已完全取締了它的地位．不知道何時，ｍｓｎ又會被淘汰？取而代之的，又會是什麼樣的東西呢？

累．．．

一連幾晚都過了午夜才睡，真的覺得很累．因為我的laptop有點小問題,所以這兩晚都忙於re-format以及從新安裝我所須要的programs．每一次要re-format我的laptop的時候, 我都覺得很煩,因為實在有太多東西要從新安裝．無論我事前做了多少準備工功夫，但一點點的data loss實在在所難免．
電腦科技雖然為我們帶來很多方便，但我們卻變得越來越倚賴它．每次我的laptop出現問題的時候我都會很不安樂，這樣算不算是病態？？？

They are back!

TTL and OCA are finally back from their honeymoon! I went over to visit them at their new home at W. Ryde after having dinner at Grace's. It is nice to have TTL and OCA back.
In the last couple of weeks, all my closest friends were occupied. HL is travelling with family at the moment, K is busy with her CPA exams. Suki is very stressed and busy with her thesis, TTL and OCA on their honeymoon. 佢哋個個都忙著自己的事,相比之下,我就好似好得閒! 平時每個星期日我都會同ttl，ｏｃａ他們一起食ｌｕｎｃｈ的，過去兩星期他們不在，真的有點不習慣．不過算是個好機會俾我可以同其他人食吓飯．
I am going accross to TTL and OCA's place again tonite to get my laptop fix. When I called TTL to ask him whether he is free tonite, he said no problem straight away, so I said I will go over after having dinner at home. But after thinking it through for a moment, I MSN him and asked him whether he has consulted OCA on what she wanted to do tonite. TTL suddenly realised that he hasn't done so! I guess he is still no used to the whole concept of being someone's husband and having to consult 老婆 before making decision yet. Haha. Oh well, I used to hang out a lot at TTL's place before he got married, now I guess I have to be more careful and make sure that I am not disturbing them before I go over la... haha

05/08 - 02

Just waiting to see if I can also write blog in English on this online diary. As I have written in my previous entry, my Chinese writing skill is not that good. (I guess I am better than many already, considering I have been in Sydney for more than half of my life now...) I sometimes find it much easier to express myself in English, and of course I can type much faster in it as well..... ^^

MD Garage 新開張

經過一段時間的研究，終於決定在這裡多開一個MD Garage。 從去年開始, 我都偶爾會在msn的my space 那邊放一些自己的一些分享文章　（那裡是第一代MD Garage)。其實,我一直都好想可以每日都寫日記,讓自己能夠將一日裡面的思緒沉澱一下,但因為msn沒有不公開文章的功能, 所以有一些不想公開的心底話都不能放到那裡.因為沒地方放文章到頭來反而變得懶於寫日記.
MD Garage 在這裡新開張，希望從今以後我能夠好好養成寫日記的習慣啦．：）
唔知道有沒有朋友會嚟呢度睇我嘅文章呢？
ｐ．ｓ．其實我的中文水準都不大好，所以在文化上面可能會有很多錯漏，請大家多多包涵．