God will make a way

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way.

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
He will do something new today.

God will make a way,
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

http://my.homewithgod.com/heavenlymidis2/makeaway.html

不是美女

自問自己確實不是美女．從小到大，都是「肥妹仔」一名．小時後，別人也許會覺得我可愛，但長大了之後，那些可愛就變得不再可愛了．雖然很多人也覺得我的輪廓不錯，但以一個亞洲人來說，我也的確比較高大．Personally, I think God created each of us and we are unique in his eyes. I believe it doesn't really matter what size I am, I am still precious. However, I found that is not the general conception. Often, people look at me and think that I am bigger than normal Asian because I am not discipline in my diet and my exercise schedule. However, that is not true. I have been watching out on what I eat ever since I started working in HK. I classify myself as being rather health concious. In terms of exercise, I admit that I was lazy earlier on, but these days I am doing sports at least once a week.

I reckon appearance isn't everything. It is more important to have good inner qualities, good personality, sense of humour, a good heart, and most importantly a passion and desire in following God. But how many people out there (especially guys) share this my view?

I guess being stressed at work and being sick for the last 2 weeks has really put me into a bad emotional state. I feel incompetent, frustrated, and weak. For some strange reason, I am feeling defeated, in many areas of my life. I know I shouldn't feel this way, but this is exactly how I am feeling at the moment. It feels like I don't know where the sunshine in my life has gone.

I pray that the clouds will be blown away, and the sun will come out again soon. Real soon.

Father, you are a soverign God and in control of all things. You know my every heartbeat, and you know my every feeling. Father, I pray that your Holy Spirit be there to lift me up. Teach me to not be anxioius of anything but to trust in you and lay all my burdens to you through prayer. Lord, thank you for chosing me to me your precious daugther. I commit my future into your hand. I trust that you have the best plan for me. Teach me to wait patiently as the plan you have for me unfolds.

In Jesus precious name, Amen.

The Existence of MDGarage

I sometimes wonder how many people actually know this site exists. Number shown on the counter doesn't suggest this site has much traffic. I guess that doesn't matter for me. The reason I set up this blog is for me to drop down my thoughts at times, and also share with friends my life, my experiences, and some of the ups and downs in life. I believe that you can know people quite well from their writing, and I am hoping that others will come to know me better through reading my blog as well. I know that my writing is not interesting or good, but I try to be as sincere as possible when I share things.

Spending time in writing an entry here everyday is becoming a habit again. I am actually quite enjoying doing it, 'cos I guess it helps in getting my mind off the stressfulness of life for a few minutes each day. =)

Oh well, hope people who actually visit this blog will find my writing improved over time. ^^

Catch up @ Gloria Jeans

Met up with Matt tonight at Strathfield Gloria Jeans. This is the first time we met up since we got back from our mission trip. It actually feels weird that we used to see each other everyday while we were in TW, but even though we live only 30mins drive from each other, we still didn't manage to meet up in the last few months! It was good catching up with him though. He is surely a funny guy.

While we were at the coffee shop, it actually felt more like we were in Korean rather than in Sydney. I know that there are a lot of Koreans in Strathfield, but I didn't think the whole coffee shop would be fill with Koreans! Even the store manager there was Korean! I found that quite interesting...... I don't mind being among Koreans though. In fact, I quite enjoy the culture, the food, the Korean drama, Korean fashion, and the Korean songs these days. =) In fact, my good friend from high school whom I work with now is Korean as well!

Matt and I are going to do a presentation on our TW mission trip this weekend at the OMF Target Asia meeting. We will be showing part of the DVD which Jeremy made for us there. It will surely bring back a lot of good memories again.

Volleyball 13NOV06

We played against the junior girls rep team last night. It was the most enjoyable game we played since I joined the team. We won all 3 sets again. With the way we are going, it looks like we will get into the final this season. Although we won last night, I wasn't happy with how I played. My passes weren't good, and I wasn't setting the ball properly for spiker last night! I guess I need to work hard at training this Friday if I am to play better at next week's game.

Just got an email from Andrew this afternoon too. We are thinking of forming a team to go into the UNSW social comp next year. It is gonna be a fair distance for me to travel from work to get to UNSW for comp, but if we can really form a team of our own, I am willing to travel. It is not that I am not enjoying the team I am playing in, but I guess it is always better to play with people I know well. I suppose I play much better and more confidently when I am playing with people I know.

Oh well, see how it goes! But then, I am going to start college in February. I don't know if I can still afford to play sports 2 nights a week?

How to be an adult?

Read this from a newspaper article. I found the topic quite interesting. Have a read and see if you agree with them or not. Leave me a comment on what you think when you have time. Enjoy!

How to be an adult

Don't be affronted Being affronted (or offended, or complaining about 'inappropriateness') is no response for a grown-up. Only children believe the world should conform to their own view of it: a sort of magical thinking that can only lead to warfare, terrorism, unmanageable short-term debt and the Blair/Bush alliance

Mistrust anything catchy, whether it's the Axis of Evil, advertising slogans, or blatant branding ('New Labour'). Catchiness exists to prevent thought and to disguise motive. Grown-ups can think for themselves

Ignore celebrities, except when they are doing what they are celebrated for doing: acting, playing football et cetera. Skill does not confer moral, political or intellectual discrimination. (Except in the case of writers. Writers know everything and can lecture you with impunity.) If a celebrity is not celebrated for doing anything but being a celebrity, smile politely but pay no notice

We should not assume that market forces will decide wisely. The market is rigged by manipulation and infantilisation

Consider our own motivations. We may rail about being treated like children, ordered about, kept from the truth, nannied and exploited… but are we complicit in it? Could the reward actually be infantilisation itself?

Autonomy is the primary marker of being grown up. Babies, children and adolescents don't have any. We don't want to be in their boat

Suspect administration Its purpose is to free the organisation to do what it's meant to do: but the triumph of the administrators - the lawyers, the accountants, the professional managers - means that too many organisations now believe that what they are meant to do is administer themselves. This is a profoundly infantile attitude

Do not love yourself unconditionally. Such love is for babies and comes from their mothers. Ignore fashion, particularly in clothes. You don't want to look like a teenager for ever

Never do business with a company offering 'solutions' as in 'ergonomic furniture solutions which minimise the postural strain associated with sitting' (chairs) and 'Post Office mailing solutions' (brown paper). The word suggests we have a problem, but since we are grown-ups, that is for us to decide

Denounce relativism at every turn. Shouting 'not fair' is childish. Demanding respect without earning it is childish. Don't fear seriousness. Babies aren't allowed to be serious

Watch our language. Is there really much difference between a six-year-old in a fright-wig and his father's waders shouting 'I'm the Mighty Wurgle-Burgle-Urgley-Goo' and an ostensible grown-up demanding to be called 'Tony Blair's Respect Tsar'?

Hide Grown-ups are not required to be perpetually accountable, while the instincts of government and big business, both of which are, almost by their nature, great infantilisers, are to keep an eye on everyone all the time

Eat it up There is nothing more babyish than having dietary requirements
Never vote for, do business with or be pleasant to anyone who uses the words 'ordinary people'

Taken from'Big Babies' by Michael Bywater, published by Granta on 2 November.

Baby present

I went out shopping with Vida last night at Burwood. Vida needed to shop for a baby present for Angela's new daughter. We shopped at different shops, but decided to get something from Pumpkin Patch in the end.

The kids clothes at Pumpkin Patch are so cute!!!!!!! I am hoping that I will have niece/newphew one day. Man, my niec/newphew are surely gonna be spoilt!!! I am sure I am going be a really cool aunt and try to spend a lot of time with the kid. I am a big kid myself, ain't I? HAHA!

Vida has been married for almost 7 years already. We are all looking forward to her having kids, but I guess she has her own reasons for not having one yet. Perhaps she wants to ger architect license before having kids?

Anyway, really look forward to having a niece/ newphew.

Rejoice in the Lord.

Though the fig tree do not blossom, nor fruit be on the vines, the produce of the olive fail and the fields yield no food, the flock be cut off from the fold and there be no herd in the stalls, yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in the God of my salvation.

Habakkuk 3:17,18 RSV

Rejoicing in You all the time is not easy, especially when situations in life are not working out the way I want them to be.

Father, please help me in remembering these words and teach me to rejoice in you day after day.

Grey's Anatomy Season 2

My season 2 DVDs have finally arrived!!!! Really look forward to having a full on "Grey's Anatomy" weekend soon!

Long Distance

Feeling a bit blue tonight. This song came to my mind just then. it is one of the songs I like singing when I go to KTV. I thought I would post it here, since I managed to find the lyrics.

The song was written by Mark Lui for Leon Lai a while back and was in Chinese, but Justin wrote the English lyrics for it in 2004 and was releasd in one of Janice's album.
(http://us.yesasia.com/b5/PrdDept.aspx/pid-1004008686/section-music/code-c/version-all/)

I really like this song, so would like to share with you all. Enjoy!

Long Distance (情深說話未曾講)
作曲：雷頌德
填詞：側田＠On Your Mark
編曲：側田＠On Your Mark

When I'm feeling blue
Lost without a clue
Sparks between our eyes
Nothing can be as true
Sing my life for you
Paintings that I drew
One plus one makes two
How I wish to caress you
Tell me where we're heading to
What we do may seem so crude
Where's the good in our goodbyes
The time you leaves'sThe time you break my heart in two

#Even though we're far apart
Send my love with all my heart
When you miss me at night
Look at the stars shining bright
For the time you pulled me through
All the things I do for you
Running tears from my eyes
Thinking how will I survive next goodbye

Repeat * # #

一起走過的日子

雖然與你相處過的時間並不長，但當中卻在著很多有趣的，值得回味的片段．我們認識以後的很多對話，一起去過的地方，一起看過的電影，一起逛過的街，曾一起分享的各種美食，你睡著了的樣子，我到現在還全部記得．

懷念你的笑容，懷念你的聲音，懷念你的細心，懷念你的體貼．懷念你的cheekiness，懷念你對真理的那份執著，懷念你曾經在我不開心的時候哄我，懷念我共你曾有過的那種resonate的感覺．

真的很想讓你知道我想你．真的很想你！

Sweet memories...

Watching the DVD the Jeremy sent through tonight bought back a lot of sweet memories of my mission trip in July. It was certainly a really momerable month in my life. The time in Taipei was like living in heaven for me. Although I was in a foreign land, without any friends or family around me, but I felt joy and happiness in my heart. Throughout the time I was in Taiwan, I was only focused on what I was in Taiwan for.... it is not about ME, but for Him alone! I guess life was so enjoyable then because everyone on team was working towards the same goals. There weren't 11 of us, each with our own goals and agendas, but 11 of us with the same goal and focus. During that time, each of us have put down our ''selves" and become a part of the team, a piece of jigsaw of a much larger picture.

Days in Taipei were happy days. I really miss Taipei and friends in Taiwan. I miss my team mates dearly. Each and everyone of them. I also miss the kids in Wanhua a lot. I really pray that I can return to Wanhua and be involved with the ministry again in a few years time.

Really looking forward to being in Taiwan again....

Feeling a bit blue...

Feeling a bit blue and stressed after having the chat with my boss yesterday. I have told him in the past that I want to move into the product management area, and he has suggested me a few times to consider going out into the field for a year or so.

The company is setting up a new field force, and my boss has asked me again to consider going out on the field to gain some sales experience. To be honest, I don't really want to go out in the field. I don't think I am a good 'sales' person, I have learnt from experience in HK that I am not! Also, I am only gonna work for another 12 mths before I start full time college anyway.

These days I am feeling a bit stressed.... on the one hand, my boss is urging me to think seriously about my career succession, and where I want to be. On the other hand, I know that I am leaving the work force in 12 mths time, but can't tell my boss about it. I have to try my best in performing well at my job, and should aim for promotion and stuff, but then I know that I am leaving soon. I really don't know what I should do!?! Deep down, I know that I just want to do well at my current role, stay in this role for another 12 mths and resign. I think as long as I am doing well at my current job, I am happy. But then, my boss might think otherwise.

I have been in this company for close to 5 yrs now. I like the people here and I guess I enjoy my role too. I want to stay at this company for another 12 mths, then go into college. I think there is really no point in me changing job now, since I will need time to adapt to the new environment, and by the time I get used to the new environment, it will be time for me to resign anyway.

In a way, I am really looking forward to my full time college days. I know that life won't be easy then, but I am sure I will enjoy it. It is surely something I am looking forward to.

I really pray that life at work will be peaceful and enjoyable for the next 12 mths or so. Please help me Lord in knowing what I should do and help me to perform well in my job.